Deep thoughts...

Life sure is fragile...alot of things came into my mind this few days. First of all, deepest condolences to brother-in-law's family for losing someone important to them. That was my first service that I went. It was on Friday night, I went there around 11 pm. It was really heartbreaking. Then I realized one thing, my tears can really shed easily when it comes to someone that I knew. It was such a pain to see how hard the family members were trying to cope up with the sudden lost. I paid my last respect to him. The only thing I am afraid is that this happen to one of my family members and no, I do not want that to happen. I know that this is life, people will go away one day, it's juz a matter of time. Sometimes it does scare me whenever I think of death. What happen to a person when he died? Heaven or hell? Does that really exist? Reincarnation? Reborn? Even so, do they still remember who they were? Life is short, although we get to live until 80 years old. In a blink of an eye, I already spent my life for 26 years. So what of 60 years down the road? Life is so valuable that nothing can replace it but yet, why some people would juz want to commit suicide and take away their precious life? Contradicting...that is human nature. Instead of thinking what would happen when I die, why not think of what I can do before I die? But still... Anyway, I went drinking with SC on Monday night. Although I was supposed to be at home but too bad, my car couldnt start when I wanted to leave the office. SC came to fetch me and I was told to leave my car there *shrugs* Instead of going home, we went to Library along with some other friends. We all had fun. Drank beer, played games, joke around, lame around. I longed for that for quite some time *giggles* Well, Ray brought his girlfren along. Pretty onot, SC said ok. Beauty is something that I lack of...but what SC said was I could look pretty if I juz know how to be pretty *winks* Dun waste my time. Makeups and all those pretty thingy, troublesome. I like to be plain and simple and I want other people to like me for who I am and not for being pretty. I will only make myself look nice on occasions, probably wedding dinner or watsoever... Last Saturday night, I had dinner with my brother since SC went for a wedding dinner. Reason? My dad was complaining about him and I dont like that at all. He is still my dad and I dont want him to get troubled becuz of my brother's thing. Well, one thing for sure, my brother listens to me so I could juz talk to him bout it and I did. I'm not sure whether he will listen or not but I'll definitely look at his back. I do not want him to fail and I do not want him and my dad to get upset. Independant or not, he is still my little brother and I love him the most among the others so I do not want anything to happen to him...May God bless him.... Tiring...been busy with work and next week, I'll be busy with housework...Oh well...going to rest in a bit so adieu*