Charity...

My company had a quick trip to the orphanage home today. They actually bought quite a number of vitamins for them and we delivered it to the orphanage home. It was somewhere in State anyway. The place was quite worn down though. When we went there, there were only 4 children there. While the others were inside talking to the person in charge, I was outside talking with 2 of the kids there. They are Dinesh, 6 and another girl, also 6. Can't recall her name now. When I look at them, I was actually thinking of how lucky I am to be who I am now. I didnt want to think of why they are there. This is the truth about human nature. We tend to abuse our privilege. For those who are complete, they tend to whine about being annoyed while for those who are alone, dying for those feelings. One will never understand until they actually experienced it and learn from it. Of course, speaking of myself, I am neither complete nor broken. One thing for sure, I never whine, or at least not all the time. I knew where am I standing and I knew exactly what I have and what I lack. This is the truth and no point whining about it. I can be childish sometimes but I can also be matured at times. Either way, I am on my own and I am glad that I am who I am. Seeing those kids there, I wanted to help but there's nothing much I could do to help. All I could do that time was to talk to them and be friend with them. At least I am happy with it and hopefully they are happy with it too. Oh well... By the way, my MD actually borrowed me his Wiggy from P1. It is a portable broadband anyway. Actually he was supposed to get 2, one for him and one for me but since he got only one for now, he let me use it for one day *winks* I am actually testing on the speed. So far so good I suppose. The speed is reasonable for surfing though but either way, this is the portable one, not the desktop one. I need to wait for SC to be back to try this before concluding. Nothing much to report...HINI is getting worse here so better be careful. Cant go out much for now. Better be safe than sorry...May God bless us...

Loneliness...

I had an argument with SC on Saturday that made me quite unhappy for the whole night. In fact, I didnt even go out for dinner with him. I just stayed at home on my own. Even BB went out with him for dinner. I gave him excuses by saying that I was tired but he knew that I was just showing face. But, he thought I was showing faces to his mom instead. I guess he didnt know what was wrong after all. SC actually said a few days back that we would be going out for shopping together with BB on Saturday. Both me and BB were actually looking forward to that day. When that day really came, instead of going to malls, we ended up at various workshops. BB cant even sleep comfortably that time. I was very disappointed in him. Although it is not a big deal but I actually made a promise with BB and I didnt want to break it at any cost. Just when we were looking forward to it, everything went haywire. BB was so tired that she took short nap all along the way. I wanted her to sleep comfortably but SC insisted of staying at the workshop instead of going back. I got even disappointed. I was speechless. I came home, moody. Not knowing how to handle, I decided to take some rest with BB. That night I was thinking. In fact, I realized quite a number of facts of myself. I actually felt like exploding that night and I wanted to talk it out but then only I realized, I had noone that I could talk to. I no longer keep in touch with my best friends. I guess I was left out in my old buddies group. I cant talk to my mom because she's now even near me. I was so pathetic that time. There is not a single person that would listen to my whining and console me when I'm down now. I am no longer who I was previously, I used to have my best friends to talk to, but not now. Everyone have their own life and I have mine too. Being in a family relationship is not easy at all. I can no longer think of breaking up if I'm not happy, or even breaking up when we are not meant for each other. No more considerations. Bond had been tied and it can no longer break. Breaking up is not an option anymore. Solutions must be made without breaking the family ties. It is not an easy task at all. Sometimes, I couldnt even handle it. How I wish I had someone to talk to...

Family...

'You begin your life in a family, you end your life in a family. From the beginning to the end, it's family.' This is the quote from 'Seven Habits of Highly Effective Family'. I am listening to that audio book that I got from my MD. I love the meaning of that sentence and a few things that I heard from the audio book. Looking back at how I was brought up, I did miss my childhood with my family members. In fact, we werent anywhere near to close to each other at all. I cant even remember how it felt when my family members were close to each other. It wasnt like a family at all. But I must thank God for blessing me with a wonderful family from SC's side. Although I am not related to them through blood, but even before I'm bonded to their family ties, they all had been treating me just like their family members. Not only that, I had also been blessed with a wonderful and adorable daughter that I love the most. She may be naughty at some times but most of the time, she's cheeky enough to make me love him so much. A family is a great gift. It is amazing how the process grew from being a kid myself, to being a wife and finally to being a mother. Anyway, I am a happy person now, to be able to live my life with my beloved family members. By the way, Suen got himself a PS3 with some donation from several parties. He actually called me on my mobile and asked me. I am short of money though but SC did took part in it. He sponsored some for him to buy that PS3. I, on the other hand, never sponsor anything. I didnt have time to play and besides, I have my PSP which is my new toy. I still want to play with my PSP. Besides, I get to choose my own game. Oh well...but the thing is that he actually called me just to talk to me. At least I felt happy with that. We are all changing...No longer who we are last time. No longer being hated, no longer being ignored. That was one of my many wishes previously...Now my wish is for BB to grow up to become an obedient girl, just like me? *giggles*

New Toys!!!

I've been pretty lazy dropping entries on this blog. I just want to spend my precious time with my little rascal. Well, I have a few new toys which I treasure quite a bit now. First of all, my brand new PSP *winks* Although PSP has been going on for very long but I only managed to get it now. Not that I couldn't afford it, I guess I just want to save up some money until SC actually decided to get one for me on our normal day outing. So, I would have toys to play when BB is sleeping at any time. I've even had some games in it which I'm dying to play. By the way, I just finished the whole game of Final Fantasy Crisis Core. Excellent gameplay. Secondly, well, good news though. The old house is sold. So me and SC actually went there to pack some stuffs. I dont have much stuffs there just a little bit here and there. I even still have an anime puzzle picture frame which I actually wanted to give it to a friend of mine but failed to do so. Can't remember the reason though. Oh well...either it will be in the rubbish dump or it will be elsewhere. Probably rubbish dump since I dont need it at all. It's just that the frame was made by SC. It will be quite a waste to just throw it away...Bleh... Anyway, while I was there, I actually searched around. One item caught my eye, lying down on the floor together with all the other junks. A UZap machine from OSIM. Brand new! Of course, I brought it back home and even told SC's mom about it. She said I can use it if I want and I had been using it for 2 days. First time I used it, that part of my body itched so badly that it turned red on the whole area. Today, it is much better. Just hope that I could lose some inches here and there. Well, that will be my second toy *winks* Hmm...I guess that's all for my new toy? *giggles* As for work, I'm being entrusted with more work loads from different areas, even up to management. Last week when Daisy wasn't around, I was even involved in LCD installations. I am now given the right to manage the support teams. They will all be under me *cheers* I will have more headache coming soon. Last week Friday, I was caught by my MD for lunch, without my handbag and my purse, only my handphones and my access card. He brought us to Centerpoint to have vegetarian dishes. It was quite nice though. I like their tea especially. Fruit tea...After lunch, he even buy us Baskin Robbin. I had my favourite Choco Mint. Yum yum...all of those for no cost at all. I didnt even bring my purse, so what of money. Cheers to my MD !! Well..going to sleep...feeling quite tired now...Nitezzz