Office Day Out...

This whole week I wun be in the office. Well, maybe only in the evening and only today I'm in the office. Monday and Tuesday, I was in a Microsoft workshop and Thursday and Friday, I'll be in Microsoft training. My supervisor who is supposed to be with me, will not be around. He's in Singapore now so I'll be on my own. Good or bad I wonder....Good I suppose. Anyway, I should be buying some books tomorrow at MPH after the talk. Probably will be going back to office also since its juz nearby. Bleh...was really tired last few days. Lack of sleep I guess. Well, cant think of anything to write now...Getting late so I better get some sleep before I start dozing off tomorrow. Adios*

Confusion...

I love you and yet I hate you.... Confusing....

Quote...

I love you...not to love for others to see... Somehow rather I like this quote...not really a quote though. Heard this from a chinese song. It is the chorus...wo ai ni bu shi kei ren kan *winks* My pinyin is bad too...*shrugs* That is true though but not everyone think that way. Some people juz love or want to get in a relationship juz to show to their friends. Well, I love you, that's the truth, and not to show to other people...not to tell other people...not to notify other people....I juz love you for who you are, what you are, how you are. That is a simple principle for me....

Preston Birthday...

First of all, Happy belated birthday to Preston...We actually had a mini birthday celebration for him during our company activity. My MD couldnt make it so too bad for him then. Dinner was on company but cake was on me. Figured that it might be too much for company to handle *shrugs* I didnt even tell SC that. Oh well...at least he enjoyed his time there. I got him a marble cheese cake from Secret Recipe anyway. Brownies too fattening *grins* Bowling and dinner over at Paddington House of Pancake. Wanted to try that for some time and finally got a chance to do that thanks to Danny *giggles* Took some pictures...although I wasnt the only photographer there. Of all pictures, I like one the most. At least I look nice in it *winks* This is the pic that I like the most. Not becuz of the photographer since the photographer is SC *shrugs* I juz like the way it is. At least I dont look fat in this pic *giggles* Anyway, grats to Preston and hope he enjoyed that night. Well, nothing much this few days. Was pretty tired with work and life. I actually had an argument with SC yesterday. Finally after so long that I finally exploded. That moment I find myself suffocating. It was so hard for me to stand it. If it werent for BB to be sleeping, I would have went out with her. Oh well...luck was on his side I guess. After things turn sour, he came back home and I actually ignored him. I was speechless and I juz kept quiet the whole time. Then, we had a great dinner *giggles* He gave me a promise but whether or not he'll keep to that promise...I will never know... I wasnt in a good mood this few days anyway. Tired with everything...work especially. I am really tired of rushing things out and get all the unneccessary stress. After I get the bonus, I will consider of looking for job elsewhere. I used to be defensive of that but now, I think I really need that. I am really tired....may God bless the company *shrugs* SC even support me on this. Thanks for being understanding... Sunday is supposed to be a family day but I spent my dinner with my family apart from SC. Dad called me to have dinner since my beloved lil bro is bringing his girlfren along *giggles* The whole purpose is to see his girlfren in person. Well, as long as he dun neglect his studies, then I'm fine with him having a relationship. Besides, he is not a small boy anymore. Form 5 already....how small is that? So...they'll have my blessings as long as he shows me a good results in his SPM. BB is starting school again tomorrow. Time for her crying time again. She has been acting very stubborn and very choosy...and it is really getting on my nerves. I was actually very angry due to that and yup...it affected my mood...Duh...she needs to learn not to be choosy the hard way since noone else is teaching her that. All she had is pampers and more pampers so I'll be the bad one...*shrugs* Really hates how it gets me tired everytime... Speechless as always....Adios*

Busy busy busy...

MIA again...Well, I was busy in the first place. Busy with work, busy with BB's pre-nursery, busy with my own life. I'm pretty tired as well. Didn't have much sleep lately. Been quite heaty, having sore throat, throat pain...yada yada...Not to mention, cough. Bleh...all comes in one. Always had been like that...Spent alot of my time, or rather my free time outside then at home resting. My grandma's birthday, family outing at Disney on Ice with BB and SC, dinner at relative's place. Nothing much to share lately. Tired and all...Well, work matters...my company is shortlisted for a MOH project in Singapore and altho shortlisted, we will be getting it so on and off, one of us will be going to Singapore. Good or bad news? I have no idea at all...The last time I've been to Singapore was ages ago. I cant even recall it. I remembered seeing pictures in my album. I think I was only about 10 years old? I have quite a number of friends down in Singapore as well but I guess I'm going to lose contact with them...*grins* I'm practically losing contact with all my friends. Getting late...I better shower and then get some sleep...need my beauty sleep badly...Chioz*

New beginning...

So far so good I suppose...work was ok...my task is on time...I even finished what my MD wanted me to do for the Singapore demo. He is actually in the progress of getting a government project in Singapore which Dr Siaw wanted it badly. If we were to get the project, I will be the one who will be going on and off down to Singapore. I'm not sure whether it is a good news or a bad news. Oh well...will see how it goes. Anyway, my bro came to look for me yesterday night and passed me some pressies my sister got back from her Hong Kong trip. Hope she had fun there. I got 2 shirts and a pack of marshmallows...yum yum...finally my mom got it right this time. Previously she bought mochi for me instead of marshmallows *shrugs* BB got a cap and a T-shirt as well. Sis even gave BB an ang pau for her belated birthday... Speaking of birthday...mine is coming *giggles* 4 more months still but hey...time pass real fast. I wonder how will I celebrate it this year...Last year what I did was to have dinner with my family. SC brought me to Tenji on my birthday...he knows perfectly well what I like and what I dont like. Pressie? Can't remember much since he bought so many pressies for me throughout the year *shrugs* Whatever it is...I'm lucky to have him as my partner. For us, everyday is like Valentines Day...pressies throughout the year and surprises as well. That is one of the things that I like about him... Hmm...I wonder will Terence be back in Malaysia on my birthday or not...then we can go for drinking !!! He'll be going off to France next week if I'm not mistaken. Well, bon voyage and please take good care of urself...God bless...My birthday wish is very simple..in fact, it had been the same all this while...I juz want to be happy with what I have right now and hope that everyone close to me will be very much healthy. Something like that...this year...I hope that I could celebrate it with my family together with SC...celebrate with Terence....and also with my kor, KW...I juz love to have them around to pamper me *giggles* Speaking of KW...I'll be meeting up with him soon cuz he actually bought pressie for BB for her birthday *shrugs* I still didnt get a chance to meet up with him yet...Soon I guess... Well, I better get some sleep...getting a little tired....*Chioz peeps...

Brand New Me...

Finally I'm starting to get the picture...after months of running away, denying the fact. I am back to who I used to be, probably even better? *winks* Juz started this week but I am happy with who I am now. Everyday life is very precious to me so I might as well get over it and live my life to the fullest. Why do I want to dwell the past and let it climb over my head? I am the one in control of my life...not the other way around so live with it... I'm still shocked with Kevin's death...everytime when I think back at it...I really cant believe that he's gone...forever...what if I am the one instead? What will happen? Whenever I think of death...I'm really scared. Does it feels like you are taking a long long nap? What will happen after someone dies? Reincarnate? Live in Heaven? I will not know...neither do I want to know. I am afraid even to think about it. Time passed really fast. In a blink of an eye, I am already 26 years old. I had lived for 26 years and I'm still fooling around. That is why...both life and time are very precious and can never be replaced. Whatever it is, juz cherish with what you have right now and be blessed with it. You will definitely regret it when it is gone. Anyway, Dr Siaw is going through a hard time in Singapore now. I heard the news from my MD. Although I juz talked to him over the phone this 2 days but he sounded ok to me. Well, I was told that his car was knocked by a motorcycle and the motorcyclist is currently in ICU having a critical condition. I can only pray that he will recover so that Dr Siaw will be relieved. I was told that if death is involved in an accident, regardless of who was the one in the wrong, the person standing will get the penalty. Dont worry Dr Siaw...you have saved so many lives so I'm sure that God will look after you and bless you. I'm really tired this few days...ever since the trip to Penang, I had been very exhausted. Not that I sleep late but on and off, BB wasnt feeling well. Even now she is having fever. This morning her fever went up to 39 degress...high fever. May God bless him. On the other hand, I am having stomach discomfort now. Plus I didnt get enough sleep...need to focus on my work...my workload getting piled up. Never ending task...*shrugs* I wonder what will happen if I decided to leave the company? *think think* Well, it is not the time yet. Still have long more way to go until I am capable of doing work on my own. Cross my fingers then... I miss drinking...I wan to go for drinking...Dum dum Terence rather go fishing than go drinking with me. He said he wans to stay sober for his project...Fishing Project? *grins* I guess when he said 6 months he really means 6 months...sigh...I am even cutting down on ciggy...brand new me...no risking my life, no doing dangerous things...live my live happily and be a happy go lucky girl as before...Well, need to do some stuff and go sleep...eyes are closing badly *shrugs* *Peace out...