Brand New Me...

Finally I'm starting to get the picture...after months of running away, denying the fact. I am back to who I used to be, probably even better? *winks* Juz started this week but I am happy with who I am now. Everyday life is very precious to me so I might as well get over it and live my life to the fullest. Why do I want to dwell the past and let it climb over my head? I am the one in control of my life...not the other way around so live with it... I'm still shocked with Kevin's death...everytime when I think back at it...I really cant believe that he's gone...forever...what if I am the one instead? What will happen? Whenever I think of death...I'm really scared. Does it feels like you are taking a long long nap? What will happen after someone dies? Reincarnate? Live in Heaven? I will not know...neither do I want to know. I am afraid even to think about it. Time passed really fast. In a blink of an eye, I am already 26 years old. I had lived for 26 years and I'm still fooling around. That is why...both life and time are very precious and can never be replaced. Whatever it is, juz cherish with what you have right now and be blessed with it. You will definitely regret it when it is gone. Anyway, Dr Siaw is going through a hard time in Singapore now. I heard the news from my MD. Although I juz talked to him over the phone this 2 days but he sounded ok to me. Well, I was told that his car was knocked by a motorcycle and the motorcyclist is currently in ICU having a critical condition. I can only pray that he will recover so that Dr Siaw will be relieved. I was told that if death is involved in an accident, regardless of who was the one in the wrong, the person standing will get the penalty. Dont worry Dr Siaw...you have saved so many lives so I'm sure that God will look after you and bless you. I'm really tired this few days...ever since the trip to Penang, I had been very exhausted. Not that I sleep late but on and off, BB wasnt feeling well. Even now she is having fever. This morning her fever went up to 39 degress...high fever. May God bless him. On the other hand, I am having stomach discomfort now. Plus I didnt get enough sleep...need to focus on my work...my workload getting piled up. Never ending task...*shrugs* I wonder what will happen if I decided to leave the company? *think think* Well, it is not the time yet. Still have long more way to go until I am capable of doing work on my own. Cross my fingers then... I miss drinking...I wan to go for drinking...Dum dum Terence rather go fishing than go drinking with me. He said he wans to stay sober for his project...Fishing Project? *grins* I guess when he said 6 months he really means 6 months...sigh...I am even cutting down on ciggy...brand new me...no risking my life, no doing dangerous things...live my live happily and be a happy go lucky girl as before...Well, need to do some stuff and go sleep...eyes are closing badly *shrugs* *Peace out...