Consideration...

Sad to say...but I'm actually considering to resign from my company. Well...was considering. I actually talked to my MD on my consideration. He is being nice enough to listen to me and to consult me, giving me hope, giving me encouragement to continue working for him. He wants me to stay and will try to resolve some things. He told me to give him some time to make things right. I had a long talk with him today after work. I need him to direct me on my career path. I have no other experience and I know that he is a good leader. He may be bad tempered sometimes but he never scolded me. This is the fact that everyone knew and I really appreciate it... I actually enjoyed my time working at my current company but sometimes, unexpected things just happen out of the blue and the way my immediate manager handle things were childish. I may be wrong and I did apologize but my immediate manager wants more that apologies. He even comes to the point that he actually asked me whether he is qualified to be a manager or not. Of course I kept quiet. In fact, when he was lecturing me, I kept quiet the whole time. I wouldnt want to talk back to him because I am not like that. That made him even bad and he actually decided to resign. What kind of manager is this? I do not know...I lost my direction... I asked my MD, how far can I go at this company? He gave me a very confident answer. He will get me far in this company. He wants me to come out from programming and learn about management. He wants me to even further my studies in MBA. He said that I am capable of managing things in this company, and he wants someone like me to help him out. He wants me to help him... I felt very reassuring. I knew that I could trust my MD. I knew that he would bring me far. How far? I do not know...but I'm willing to put my trust in him. I finally make up my mind to stay in this company. He told me to give him some time so that he could sort things out and indirectly separate me and my immediate manager out. I will have my own task to manage without reporting to my immediate manager. I will be reporting to my MD indirectly. All this while...alot of people come and go. This company's staff turnover is pretty high. I do not understand why...Probably it was due to my MD. I guess not many people can stand him. But for me, I never had any problem with my MD. Although most of the time, he would be scolding other people, having mood swings...he never once scolded me and never had any problem with me at all. I do not know why but because of this, I actually enjoyed my time in this company. He always tell me that I am one of the key person in this company...but I'm just a junior programmer. Well...see how it goes. See how far can I fly...how far can he brings me...

Slimming treatment ?

It's been a week since I last drop an entry here. Was keeping up with my japanese drama. I traded quite a number of series with another otaku not long ago. My collection of dramas and animes are pilling up. Can't think of a better place to store them. Oh well, DVD collection is good enough. I'll be having one drawer full of my DVDs in it *winks* Few dramas that I got from her. Koizora, a very touching 6 episodes story. Full of romance and tears. I think I cried almost every part *grin* Another one that I'm watching currently is Last Friends, story of 5 friends who stay at the same house, having a secret within each of them. So far so good. Storyline is good as far as I watched. I have a few more pending, Yukan Club and Nodame Cantabille (something like that). That was only for jdrama. Few series of animes also *giggle* Well, nothing interesting happened. SC's parents just came back from Philipines, from the church mission. They bought quite a lot of snacks back. I was told that the price there are pretty cheap. The things that they brought back were all food anyway. Apart from home stuffs, work...nothing much. I had been pretty busy with all my task on my hand now. Everything is pilling up and queueing but the queue never gets lesser, only more. *bleh* Why can't they get more programmers. I'm gonna be stressed up due to work and I dont like that at all. By the way, I had an appointment with Medishape today for a free Spa RF treatment. My MD let me try one treatment. I had it on my tummy. Well, RF stands for radio frequency. It is just a machine that will use heat to heat up the required part of the body until the temperature is at about 42 degrees. Our normal temperature is at 30 degrees. Imagine how my tummy got burned up and it actually became red. It was a nice experience though, but I dont find my tummy getting smaller *roll* They say not much results after 1 treatment, and Im only entitled to one free treatment. This 20 minutes treatment cost about 400 bucks each time. It's like cutting a big hole in my pocket. Free one will be more than enough. A little tummy wouldnt hurt *winks* Just wish I can do that for free until my tummy gets smaller *grin* Well, God gave us this body so we should treasure it as how it is. Speaking of that, it actually reminds me of a quote that I read back then. It goes like this... 'You are who you are and not what others want you to be.' I find it pretty true and I actually like that quote. Well...going to continue my movies so adios*

A day after my precious birthday...

Many thanks to those that spare some time to sms me or even write on my Facebook wall to wish me on my precious birthday. I even got a wish from a stranger =) Well, I'm grateful to them that I exist in thier erm...mind? *lol* Second day of birthday, as if it is the usual day, as if nothing had happened. I'm one year older and I should be grateful that everyday I'm growing and hopefully to become a better person. There's still lots in me that I dont like, that I could improvise to be a better person but I only like certain people to advise me on that. One thing for sure, I do not like it when my immediate superior advise me on life. What does it got to do with him? Bleh...hate it so much but I just keep quiet. Well, working life never got better. On the development side it was ok but now that my big boss just told me to take over the support case, things got worse. I just have to handle it. Asking advise from my immediate superior doesnt help at all since he always say he dont know. Bleh...what a childish behaviour. Even my big boss told him to guide me properly. But still, I have to handle some cases on my own using my own way. Even spent some time to call the doctors after work explaining things to them. Enough of work, SC's parents left to the airport already. They will be leaving to Philipines tonight for a mission. May God bless them and hope they have a safe journey. Sorry that I didnt fetch them to the church just now since BB is still awake and in the process of going to bed. When I went downstairs, they left already. Oh well... Something actually kinda disturbing me. Once in a while I will think of unneccessary things like death. How would it be to die? What will happen to those that died? What happen when I die? Will I still be able to think like now? Will I still be able to have fun? Will I be able to do anything at all? Will I even remember who I am? Where will I go? Will I dissapear from this world? Lots of questions are flooding my head but I cant seem to get any answers. Only God will answer me when the time comes. Can I put my trust in it? Who knows... Life is so unpredictable...My dad just called me and told me that my cousin's husband passed away last week. Out of no reason, while sleeping in the middle of the night, shouted and gave his last breath. That was a shock to me. That is why I said, life is so unpredictable. I'll send my condolences to her. Her husband left her with 2 kids with the youngest one 2 years old. She must be having a hard time...I'll pray for her. Hope that she's getting better each day... Anyway...I'm pretty tired now..going for my beauty shower and beauty sleep *winks*

Birthday Events...

Happy birthday to me ! *winks* Never been any better during my precious birthday. I had a great day today and even last week itself when SC celebrated my birthday with me a few times. He brought me for my favourite buffet at 1 Utama, then he gave me a surprise pressie which is a Coach purse, had dinner celebration with his family on Saturday night, and finally, had my favourite Japanese buffet again, this time was at Tenji. I still prefer Jogoya though but the environment at Tenji was excellent. I had too much though and I disposed some out *lol* After so long, I started to blog back. Somehow, I just felt like it. Lots of things to say, personal life, working life, and even on special occasion like today. Best of all, I'm just happy. There are words saying that laughter is the best medicine and it is way true. Whenever I am happy, the whole day felt so good to me. This year birthday was one of the best birthday I ever had. I got some pressies also. Pressie from SC was a Coach purse, pressie from grandma was a big red packet, pressie from SC's parents was a shirt and a Rolex watch *shock* Never expected that though. I dont even dare to wear them. I only wore them once when I was at Palm Spring for my mini birthday celebration with SC's friends. Now the watch is happily staying in the safe, together with the red packet. Anyway, happy big birthday to myself... Not a lot of people wishes me though. Real time I do have a handful and virtually, through Facebook, I do have a number of wishes. Whichever way it is, thanks for all the wishes. Birthday wishes from them means that I exist within them and for that, even just a small little wish will cheer me up. That's why I said, they are the best among all. On the other hand, I do not have any wishes from my parents. Not sure why but I guess this was expected? Oh well...may God bless them in either way. Today's dinner was at Tenji at Solaris. Quite pricey but environment was brilliant. Food there was just ok. I still prefer Jogoya with more varieties there. I ate too much and ended up got myself sick and threw up *rolled* What a waste. Now, I am super tired waiting for this blog to end so that I could take my bath and go to bed immediately. Too tired for any other games... As for my working life, I just got involved in big case. My big boss just passed me to handle all the support cases which was initially handled by my immediate superior. He got scolded so the task was handed over to me *sigh* I am so lost. Besides, I still have lots of things to do in development side. I just got a message from my big boss asking me to call him first thing in the morning tomorrow. Got some confusion in the new project that I was doing and wanted to do some changes. Oh well... Getting really tired...cant stand it anymore. Oh by the way, Tenji offers free flow beer, wine and even shots during dinner buffet. Beer was too filling, wine was of course out of my interest so I took shots. Me, SC and his brother even played games to decide who should drink. I just love playing games with them. Never been better with our relationship being this way. I love the way we are right now. It was all that I ever wished for before...*muaks* Off to bed...nite nitezzz