Lonely New Year...

Let me start by wishing everyone a very happy new year...In a few more hours, it will be year 2010. Time flies really fast. There goes the year of 2009. Without realizing it, I had been working for more than a year already and it felt as if it was just few months back. Working life was ok I suppose. I can still bear it to some certain extend. At least at times I do enjoy my work as a programmer. Skip the work part, after all, I am on leave this week, so no work story for me. Speaking of today, it is new year eve and I'm spending my time at home while everyone is out. Great eh? Bleh...But I was out in the afternoon. This whole week, during my leave, I had been going out every afternoon. Make good use of my leave. Monday was with BB to Kid's Gym...Tuesday was to watch 2 movies...Wednesday was to go SC's office to help him with his catalogue...and finally today, Thursday was to have lunch with my colleagues and to have a drink with my best boyfriend, Terence. I juz luv spending time with him. He is the only one that really understand me well enough that I could share almost everything with him. So many months of missing in action, I guess I juz miss him caring for me as how he always did. We talked about old times and I juz realized he had a tattoo on his back of his neck. A cross. He knew bout mine and he told me that I used to tell him that my tattoo was his name. I dont remember telling him that but that was what he told me. Apparently, he remembers alot of things from last time. Time that we spent together, even whatever that I told him. He kept it with him and remembered it. I dont remember things well so most of it juz kinda flew by? Anyway, this morning I went down to Subang to fetch Danny since he still couldn't drive yet. At least I didnt want him to take the risk. Had lunch at 1 Utama with my going to be ex-COO, my accountant, and one ex-collegue. We had Nandos for lunch. I wasn't hungry that time. In fact, I had been having some appetite problem this few days so food intake kinda decrease alot. Do I get lighter that way? Bleh...not because I'm on diet or whatsoever, I juz dont have appetite to eat alot. So I shared my lunch with Danny. He eats more that I do anyway. After lunch, I fetched him back and went to look for Terence. He stayed nearby anyway. Went to his house to look for him. The last time I went there was, I dunno...4 years back? That time I was in Form 6. Anyway, I have a vague memory of the location of his house as long as I found his secondary school. I was on the right track but I got lost in the end. *shrugs* I had to call him and get him to direct me. It was funny how I actually complained to him that the school shifted. We laughed over it. I thought I had good sense of direction but I guess I was wrong and he is not the only who told me that. Danny said that to me as well. *shrugs* When I reached him place, he took the wheels and drove to Subang Parade for a drink. I had such a great time. In fact, he actually invited me to join him tonight at the Curve for dinner and even drinking. I was really interested but when I called back home, SC had his own plan for dinner. So I headed back for dinner with him and that was it. Only dinner. I actually requested to go out and join Terence after dinner but I had no choice but to stay at home. Everyone will be out including my in-laws and the grandma. Noone will be taking care of BB. Can't escape from it. Damn...I really want to join him. Oh well...there is always chance to do so. I'm actually blessed to have him as my best boyfriend, someone who understand me very well, someone who are there for me and cheer me up when I am feeling down, someone who will never hurt me, someone who care for me so much and the fact is that he is just my friend. I guess I could say that I love him as a close fren *winks* Tonight will be pretty bored for me so I'll be off watching some movies and slack around. Probably even get some early rest. *Chioz..

Merry Belated Christmas and Happy New Year...

Christmas passed and New Year is coming. Year 2009 juz went by in a blink of an eye. 2010...a brand new year for everyone including myself. I wonder what will be my 2010 resolution? Hmm...better income? better career? No idea at all...juz hope that it is a good year for me. Christmas Eve...I was all alone at home while SC was out with his frens drinking. Can't really remember where he went though. One thing for sure, I wasnt with him. That was my worst Christmas Eve. Mood was swinging, even my phone was dead quiet. I actually sent some christmas wishes to my close frenz. I guess it counts up to 5 of them? Only a few replied me though. Make things worse... I wonder whats with my sudden urge to drop an entry? Backside itchy I suppose. I actually left this blog out for quite some time. Well, I didnt close down this blog for certain reason. At least when I'm free or when I feel like it, I can still drop an entry or two. That would keep me entertained. I kinda like how I am now..although not all the time I'm happy but at least I have my friends to be with me. I got back in touch with Terence, my best boyfriend I even had. So called boyfriend *winks* He is my best fren that is really close to me, to the extend that SC let me to go out with him alone and we did. Terence knew almost everything about my life, even my downfall time. He is like an angel to me, pulling me up whenever I'm down, make me laugh whenever I am sad, lend me a shoulder whenever I needed one. Cheers to my best boyfriend. Hugs and peck on the cheeks were never wrong for us as that show how close we are to each other. I like that...In fact, I treasure this relationship so much... Next will be Danny. He's my collegue as mentioned and I am pretty close with him. Lunch together, sometimes even going out together for a drink or for shopping. I feel really comfy with him around and I'm sure I'm not the only one who felt it. Regardless of that, I like his presence. Terence is my first one and he is my second one. Should I say boyfriend too? *winks* Anyway, apparently my mood goes swingy easily ever since. Big influence to my mood somehow *grins*I just wish I'm not that moody cuz honestly, I do not like the idea of having mood swings at all...Getting tired of it too... Well...a big wish to both my boyfriendz...Hope 2010 will be a good year for both of them and may God bless them. Peace out..getting really tired. Will drop an entry when I feel like it again. Chioz*

Nightmare...

I had a nightmare yesterday night. I can even clearly remember what was it. I woke up several times but the nightmare would even continue from where I left. It was as if I'm half awake but live in the nightmare. It wasn't like a horror kind of nightmare though. It was something like end of the world. I think this is my second time having such nightmare. Previous nightmare, it was more like Independence Day but this time, it was more like War of the Warlords. Well, something like that...Anyway, I didnt have enough sleep because of that nightmare and I was so tired during my working hours. Today was such a boring day for me at workplace. Preston and Danny were out and I had noone to have lunch with. The others just left without me. Bleh...I still prefer to hang around with those two, especially Danny for some reasons. Guess he resembles that certain someone alot. Anyway, he cooked spaghetti yesterday and we had it for breakfast. A healthy spaghetti though. But it was quite a big plate. He just called early in the morning and told me to go downstairs and fast. I thought he was having problem with his computer but no...he made a big container of spaghetti and asked me to try it. In fact, it was superb. Not much taste according to him but for me, it is just nice. Thumbs up for the spaghetti *winks* I wonder will he make more breakfast? *giggles* Mommy will be here tomorrow and we'll be having dinner together at her new place on Friday night. Saturday, we'll be heading off to Penang to celebrate grandpa's birthday at night. He never see BB before so I better show it to him before anything happens. Of course I hope that he is physically healthy and mentally healthy as well. May God bless him...

Bbq...

Yesterday was a great day. At least, I felt that way. Me and my collegues actually planned for a bbq over at my place. Only those that are close were invited. Obviously, dont expect me to invite my boss over right? So, we had 5 collegues and 2 ex-collegues over here yesterday. Mainly into eating session instead of drinking session. We had only 1 carton of beer and I had none. One thing that actually surprised me was that I actually stayed with them until 3 am. Only the girls though. The guys went home pretty early, that was excluding Danny. I had a conversation with SC yesterday since he went out with his brother and Danny tagged along. Well, just say that Danny resembles someone that we knew and was pretty close with until we decided to ban him *winks* Erm...let's keep that person a secret. I knew this person also and I was pretty close with him too. In fact, I kinda like his presence because he seems to care and pamper me at the same time, in a way a friend does. I guess that is why I like Danny's presence also. Danny is exactly the same as him. This few days, I had been spending a lot of my lunch time with him along with some other collegues. Well, to tell the truth, he is one of the 2 that I am very comfortable with in the office. Probably I should hope that he dont leave the company, since my company staff turnover is pretty high. By the way, his birthday is coming...*giggle*

Ceremony..

2 of my collegues are getting married in the coming year. In fact, they are already married, just lack of the ceremony. I am envy to be honest...I never had any ceremony of my own before so I'm not sure how it felt. SC didn't want it. His family also didnt want it..I know how tiring it will be and how exhausted we'll be but I just cant help to just think about it. Of course I do not regret it. I'm just happy with my life now even without the ceremony. The ceremony is just a show anyway. Not meant for yourself but meant for others to look at you, how elegant is your ceremony, how they will judge you just by the ceremony. I didn't like that at all... Anyway, congrats to both of them. One of them is my good friend in the office. Well, only lately we had been close to each other. Somehow, lately I have been going out for lunch with the Sales team. Only 2 person will ask me out for lunch. Others are just ignorant. Oh well...time for me to have some diet perhaps...Many things happened and I'm fully aware of it. I guess I just close one eye all the time and let it pass...I'm still happy with how things are right now. Thanks to Preston and Danny for brighten up my time in the office. Cheers to them...

Feelings...

Lately I maybe acting weirdly but at least I am happy. Only during work time though. I feel comfortable hanging around them though. I was refering to two of my collegues actually. They are both guys and they are both from the sales team. Well, there might be words going around but I dont really mind. I want to spend my time, or at least my lunch time, comfortably and happy... Well, that was for my working life anyway. As for my personal life, I need to get some exercise *shrugs* There's a few piece of clothes that my mom got for me that I couldn't fit in it. Actually, I had already planned to go for my morning jog but it will only start this coming week. I'll be waking up half an hour earlier to jog around the house area and be back just in time for work. Apart from that, I'll have the UZap to help me trim up my tummy. No more I dont care anymore... Weekend is coming again. Time passes so quickly. During the past holiday, me and SC actually brought BB for swimming at Lake Club. She loves it there. She played with water, played on the slide, even the water got into her nose so many times but yet she still loves it. We had a hard time moving her out from the pool though, but she was way tired when we were all done. Well, we should be bringing her there again tomorrow. At least that is what SC promised her... I'm not an active blogger but from time to time I'll just drop an entry to boost myself up. My eyes are pretty itchy now for no reason so I better stop here...Peace out !

Brand new life...

Lots of things happened for the past week. I'm not going into much details here since I dont know who will accidentally snuck their nose into this entry. Anyway, there were lots of ups and downs that happened, but one thing for sure, it all leads to a better life, encouraging me to start a brand new life... Well, all those that happened were in my workplace anyway. I was how I made up my mind to do something in my workplace and got rid of it. Because of this, I had a closer relationship with one of my collegue. We went out for drinking together, including SC, talked about our problems in workplace. It was nice to talk to him. At least we both were able to release some stress. We had been collegue for almost 2 years but we hardly know each other's background. Even Danny, another collegue who just joined last week was rather surprised. Anyway, just hope that this brand new start will lead to a better life for me... By the way, Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends who are celebrating. May God bless everyone in this festive season. 4 days of holiday. Finally, I get to have plenty of rest during this holiday. I get to spend more time with BB during this long holiday as well. I wanted to go swimming with her at Lake Club today but it was raining heavily. Tomorrow will be guest day so it will be packed as well so I guess I'll go there on Monday. Not sure tho because we'll need to clear up the old house. Bleh... Nothing much to share here...I'm tired now since it's very late now and besides, I still want to play some game before going to bed. Lately, I had spend alot of my time playing PSP, on a game recommended by my collegue. Cute game with cool gameplay. Never get bored of it. The game name is Patapon. Cute because the tribe looks like an eyeball, and cool gameplay because it goes by music, where we'll have to use different keys for attack, defense and move. So off I go...getting a lil bored with blog anyway...Chioz peeps..

Dream...

I had a dream last night. It was something like the end of the world kind of dream. I had this dream once before, and I remembered that I had to force myself to wake up. As for this time, I didnt force myself to wake up. It just happened. I cant really remember who I was with or where I was in the dream but one thing for sure, I remembered that I was standing at a place high enough to see lights shining down from the sky, not one but seven spots of lights at the same time. Whenever the light shines down, something bad will happen. So I always keep myself focused on the sky. Whenever I see the light growing in the sky, before it shines down, I knew that something bad is about to happen so I had to protect myself from being washed away. Somehow, I always knew what to do to protect myself. It never ends. The lights keep shining down from time to time. I kept running and defense myself all the time. Various places, different time. Cant even remembered how many times had it happened. I can still remembered clearly how the lights look like, the view of the seven lights shining down from the sky. It still lingers in my head even now. Of course, it is just a dream but something about it bothers me for some reason. I dont know why am I bothered with it though. Either way, it is just a dream...Felt like I am in the movie of War of the Warlords..Cross my fingers...

Charity...

My company had a quick trip to the orphanage home today. They actually bought quite a number of vitamins for them and we delivered it to the orphanage home. It was somewhere in State anyway. The place was quite worn down though. When we went there, there were only 4 children there. While the others were inside talking to the person in charge, I was outside talking with 2 of the kids there. They are Dinesh, 6 and another girl, also 6. Can't recall her name now. When I look at them, I was actually thinking of how lucky I am to be who I am now. I didnt want to think of why they are there. This is the truth about human nature. We tend to abuse our privilege. For those who are complete, they tend to whine about being annoyed while for those who are alone, dying for those feelings. One will never understand until they actually experienced it and learn from it. Of course, speaking of myself, I am neither complete nor broken. One thing for sure, I never whine, or at least not all the time. I knew where am I standing and I knew exactly what I have and what I lack. This is the truth and no point whining about it. I can be childish sometimes but I can also be matured at times. Either way, I am on my own and I am glad that I am who I am. Seeing those kids there, I wanted to help but there's nothing much I could do to help. All I could do that time was to talk to them and be friend with them. At least I am happy with it and hopefully they are happy with it too. Oh well... By the way, my MD actually borrowed me his Wiggy from P1. It is a portable broadband anyway. Actually he was supposed to get 2, one for him and one for me but since he got only one for now, he let me use it for one day *winks* I am actually testing on the speed. So far so good I suppose. The speed is reasonable for surfing though but either way, this is the portable one, not the desktop one. I need to wait for SC to be back to try this before concluding. Nothing much to report...HINI is getting worse here so better be careful. Cant go out much for now. Better be safe than sorry...May God bless us...

Loneliness...

I had an argument with SC on Saturday that made me quite unhappy for the whole night. In fact, I didnt even go out for dinner with him. I just stayed at home on my own. Even BB went out with him for dinner. I gave him excuses by saying that I was tired but he knew that I was just showing face. But, he thought I was showing faces to his mom instead. I guess he didnt know what was wrong after all. SC actually said a few days back that we would be going out for shopping together with BB on Saturday. Both me and BB were actually looking forward to that day. When that day really came, instead of going to malls, we ended up at various workshops. BB cant even sleep comfortably that time. I was very disappointed in him. Although it is not a big deal but I actually made a promise with BB and I didnt want to break it at any cost. Just when we were looking forward to it, everything went haywire. BB was so tired that she took short nap all along the way. I wanted her to sleep comfortably but SC insisted of staying at the workshop instead of going back. I got even disappointed. I was speechless. I came home, moody. Not knowing how to handle, I decided to take some rest with BB. That night I was thinking. In fact, I realized quite a number of facts of myself. I actually felt like exploding that night and I wanted to talk it out but then only I realized, I had noone that I could talk to. I no longer keep in touch with my best friends. I guess I was left out in my old buddies group. I cant talk to my mom because she's now even near me. I was so pathetic that time. There is not a single person that would listen to my whining and console me when I'm down now. I am no longer who I was previously, I used to have my best friends to talk to, but not now. Everyone have their own life and I have mine too. Being in a family relationship is not easy at all. I can no longer think of breaking up if I'm not happy, or even breaking up when we are not meant for each other. No more considerations. Bond had been tied and it can no longer break. Breaking up is not an option anymore. Solutions must be made without breaking the family ties. It is not an easy task at all. Sometimes, I couldnt even handle it. How I wish I had someone to talk to...

Family...

'You begin your life in a family, you end your life in a family. From the beginning to the end, it's family.' This is the quote from 'Seven Habits of Highly Effective Family'. I am listening to that audio book that I got from my MD. I love the meaning of that sentence and a few things that I heard from the audio book. Looking back at how I was brought up, I did miss my childhood with my family members. In fact, we werent anywhere near to close to each other at all. I cant even remember how it felt when my family members were close to each other. It wasnt like a family at all. But I must thank God for blessing me with a wonderful family from SC's side. Although I am not related to them through blood, but even before I'm bonded to their family ties, they all had been treating me just like their family members. Not only that, I had also been blessed with a wonderful and adorable daughter that I love the most. She may be naughty at some times but most of the time, she's cheeky enough to make me love him so much. A family is a great gift. It is amazing how the process grew from being a kid myself, to being a wife and finally to being a mother. Anyway, I am a happy person now, to be able to live my life with my beloved family members. By the way, Suen got himself a PS3 with some donation from several parties. He actually called me on my mobile and asked me. I am short of money though but SC did took part in it. He sponsored some for him to buy that PS3. I, on the other hand, never sponsor anything. I didnt have time to play and besides, I have my PSP which is my new toy. I still want to play with my PSP. Besides, I get to choose my own game. Oh well...but the thing is that he actually called me just to talk to me. At least I felt happy with that. We are all changing...No longer who we are last time. No longer being hated, no longer being ignored. That was one of my many wishes previously...Now my wish is for BB to grow up to become an obedient girl, just like me? *giggles*

New Toys!!!

I've been pretty lazy dropping entries on this blog. I just want to spend my precious time with my little rascal. Well, I have a few new toys which I treasure quite a bit now. First of all, my brand new PSP *winks* Although PSP has been going on for very long but I only managed to get it now. Not that I couldn't afford it, I guess I just want to save up some money until SC actually decided to get one for me on our normal day outing. So, I would have toys to play when BB is sleeping at any time. I've even had some games in it which I'm dying to play. By the way, I just finished the whole game of Final Fantasy Crisis Core. Excellent gameplay. Secondly, well, good news though. The old house is sold. So me and SC actually went there to pack some stuffs. I dont have much stuffs there just a little bit here and there. I even still have an anime puzzle picture frame which I actually wanted to give it to a friend of mine but failed to do so. Can't remember the reason though. Oh well...either it will be in the rubbish dump or it will be elsewhere. Probably rubbish dump since I dont need it at all. It's just that the frame was made by SC. It will be quite a waste to just throw it away...Bleh... Anyway, while I was there, I actually searched around. One item caught my eye, lying down on the floor together with all the other junks. A UZap machine from OSIM. Brand new! Of course, I brought it back home and even told SC's mom about it. She said I can use it if I want and I had been using it for 2 days. First time I used it, that part of my body itched so badly that it turned red on the whole area. Today, it is much better. Just hope that I could lose some inches here and there. Well, that will be my second toy *winks* Hmm...I guess that's all for my new toy? *giggles* As for work, I'm being entrusted with more work loads from different areas, even up to management. Last week when Daisy wasn't around, I was even involved in LCD installations. I am now given the right to manage the support teams. They will all be under me *cheers* I will have more headache coming soon. Last week Friday, I was caught by my MD for lunch, without my handbag and my purse, only my handphones and my access card. He brought us to Centerpoint to have vegetarian dishes. It was quite nice though. I like their tea especially. Fruit tea...After lunch, he even buy us Baskin Robbin. I had my favourite Choco Mint. Yum yum...all of those for no cost at all. I didnt even bring my purse, so what of money. Cheers to my MD !! Well..going to sleep...feeling quite tired now...Nitezzz

Consideration...

Sad to say...but I'm actually considering to resign from my company. Well...was considering. I actually talked to my MD on my consideration. He is being nice enough to listen to me and to consult me, giving me hope, giving me encouragement to continue working for him. He wants me to stay and will try to resolve some things. He told me to give him some time to make things right. I had a long talk with him today after work. I need him to direct me on my career path. I have no other experience and I know that he is a good leader. He may be bad tempered sometimes but he never scolded me. This is the fact that everyone knew and I really appreciate it... I actually enjoyed my time working at my current company but sometimes, unexpected things just happen out of the blue and the way my immediate manager handle things were childish. I may be wrong and I did apologize but my immediate manager wants more that apologies. He even comes to the point that he actually asked me whether he is qualified to be a manager or not. Of course I kept quiet. In fact, when he was lecturing me, I kept quiet the whole time. I wouldnt want to talk back to him because I am not like that. That made him even bad and he actually decided to resign. What kind of manager is this? I do not know...I lost my direction... I asked my MD, how far can I go at this company? He gave me a very confident answer. He will get me far in this company. He wants me to come out from programming and learn about management. He wants me to even further my studies in MBA. He said that I am capable of managing things in this company, and he wants someone like me to help him out. He wants me to help him... I felt very reassuring. I knew that I could trust my MD. I knew that he would bring me far. How far? I do not know...but I'm willing to put my trust in him. I finally make up my mind to stay in this company. He told me to give him some time so that he could sort things out and indirectly separate me and my immediate manager out. I will have my own task to manage without reporting to my immediate manager. I will be reporting to my MD indirectly. All this while...alot of people come and go. This company's staff turnover is pretty high. I do not understand why...Probably it was due to my MD. I guess not many people can stand him. But for me, I never had any problem with my MD. Although most of the time, he would be scolding other people, having mood swings...he never once scolded me and never had any problem with me at all. I do not know why but because of this, I actually enjoyed my time in this company. He always tell me that I am one of the key person in this company...but I'm just a junior programmer. Well...see how it goes. See how far can I fly...how far can he brings me...

Slimming treatment ?

It's been a week since I last drop an entry here. Was keeping up with my japanese drama. I traded quite a number of series with another otaku not long ago. My collection of dramas and animes are pilling up. Can't think of a better place to store them. Oh well, DVD collection is good enough. I'll be having one drawer full of my DVDs in it *winks* Few dramas that I got from her. Koizora, a very touching 6 episodes story. Full of romance and tears. I think I cried almost every part *grin* Another one that I'm watching currently is Last Friends, story of 5 friends who stay at the same house, having a secret within each of them. So far so good. Storyline is good as far as I watched. I have a few more pending, Yukan Club and Nodame Cantabille (something like that). That was only for jdrama. Few series of animes also *giggle* Well, nothing interesting happened. SC's parents just came back from Philipines, from the church mission. They bought quite a lot of snacks back. I was told that the price there are pretty cheap. The things that they brought back were all food anyway. Apart from home stuffs, work...nothing much. I had been pretty busy with all my task on my hand now. Everything is pilling up and queueing but the queue never gets lesser, only more. *bleh* Why can't they get more programmers. I'm gonna be stressed up due to work and I dont like that at all. By the way, I had an appointment with Medishape today for a free Spa RF treatment. My MD let me try one treatment. I had it on my tummy. Well, RF stands for radio frequency. It is just a machine that will use heat to heat up the required part of the body until the temperature is at about 42 degrees. Our normal temperature is at 30 degrees. Imagine how my tummy got burned up and it actually became red. It was a nice experience though, but I dont find my tummy getting smaller *roll* They say not much results after 1 treatment, and Im only entitled to one free treatment. This 20 minutes treatment cost about 400 bucks each time. It's like cutting a big hole in my pocket. Free one will be more than enough. A little tummy wouldnt hurt *winks* Just wish I can do that for free until my tummy gets smaller *grin* Well, God gave us this body so we should treasure it as how it is. Speaking of that, it actually reminds me of a quote that I read back then. It goes like this... 'You are who you are and not what others want you to be.' I find it pretty true and I actually like that quote. Well...going to continue my movies so adios*

A day after my precious birthday...

Many thanks to those that spare some time to sms me or even write on my Facebook wall to wish me on my precious birthday. I even got a wish from a stranger =) Well, I'm grateful to them that I exist in thier erm...mind? *lol* Second day of birthday, as if it is the usual day, as if nothing had happened. I'm one year older and I should be grateful that everyday I'm growing and hopefully to become a better person. There's still lots in me that I dont like, that I could improvise to be a better person but I only like certain people to advise me on that. One thing for sure, I do not like it when my immediate superior advise me on life. What does it got to do with him? Bleh...hate it so much but I just keep quiet. Well, working life never got better. On the development side it was ok but now that my big boss just told me to take over the support case, things got worse. I just have to handle it. Asking advise from my immediate superior doesnt help at all since he always say he dont know. Bleh...what a childish behaviour. Even my big boss told him to guide me properly. But still, I have to handle some cases on my own using my own way. Even spent some time to call the doctors after work explaining things to them. Enough of work, SC's parents left to the airport already. They will be leaving to Philipines tonight for a mission. May God bless them and hope they have a safe journey. Sorry that I didnt fetch them to the church just now since BB is still awake and in the process of going to bed. When I went downstairs, they left already. Oh well... Something actually kinda disturbing me. Once in a while I will think of unneccessary things like death. How would it be to die? What will happen to those that died? What happen when I die? Will I still be able to think like now? Will I still be able to have fun? Will I be able to do anything at all? Will I even remember who I am? Where will I go? Will I dissapear from this world? Lots of questions are flooding my head but I cant seem to get any answers. Only God will answer me when the time comes. Can I put my trust in it? Who knows... Life is so unpredictable...My dad just called me and told me that my cousin's husband passed away last week. Out of no reason, while sleeping in the middle of the night, shouted and gave his last breath. That was a shock to me. That is why I said, life is so unpredictable. I'll send my condolences to her. Her husband left her with 2 kids with the youngest one 2 years old. She must be having a hard time...I'll pray for her. Hope that she's getting better each day... Anyway...I'm pretty tired now..going for my beauty shower and beauty sleep *winks*

Birthday Events...

Happy birthday to me ! *winks* Never been any better during my precious birthday. I had a great day today and even last week itself when SC celebrated my birthday with me a few times. He brought me for my favourite buffet at 1 Utama, then he gave me a surprise pressie which is a Coach purse, had dinner celebration with his family on Saturday night, and finally, had my favourite Japanese buffet again, this time was at Tenji. I still prefer Jogoya though but the environment at Tenji was excellent. I had too much though and I disposed some out *lol* After so long, I started to blog back. Somehow, I just felt like it. Lots of things to say, personal life, working life, and even on special occasion like today. Best of all, I'm just happy. There are words saying that laughter is the best medicine and it is way true. Whenever I am happy, the whole day felt so good to me. This year birthday was one of the best birthday I ever had. I got some pressies also. Pressie from SC was a Coach purse, pressie from grandma was a big red packet, pressie from SC's parents was a shirt and a Rolex watch *shock* Never expected that though. I dont even dare to wear them. I only wore them once when I was at Palm Spring for my mini birthday celebration with SC's friends. Now the watch is happily staying in the safe, together with the red packet. Anyway, happy big birthday to myself... Not a lot of people wishes me though. Real time I do have a handful and virtually, through Facebook, I do have a number of wishes. Whichever way it is, thanks for all the wishes. Birthday wishes from them means that I exist within them and for that, even just a small little wish will cheer me up. That's why I said, they are the best among all. On the other hand, I do not have any wishes from my parents. Not sure why but I guess this was expected? Oh well...may God bless them in either way. Today's dinner was at Tenji at Solaris. Quite pricey but environment was brilliant. Food there was just ok. I still prefer Jogoya with more varieties there. I ate too much and ended up got myself sick and threw up *rolled* What a waste. Now, I am super tired waiting for this blog to end so that I could take my bath and go to bed immediately. Too tired for any other games... As for my working life, I just got involved in big case. My big boss just passed me to handle all the support cases which was initially handled by my immediate superior. He got scolded so the task was handed over to me *sigh* I am so lost. Besides, I still have lots of things to do in development side. I just got a message from my big boss asking me to call him first thing in the morning tomorrow. Got some confusion in the new project that I was doing and wanted to do some changes. Oh well... Getting really tired...cant stand it anymore. Oh by the way, Tenji offers free flow beer, wine and even shots during dinner buffet. Beer was too filling, wine was of course out of my interest so I took shots. Me, SC and his brother even played games to decide who should drink. I just love playing games with them. Never been better with our relationship being this way. I love the way we are right now. It was all that I ever wished for before...*muaks* Off to bed...nite nitezzz

Second day...

Second day of blog. Happy news? *giggles* Nothing much happen today. Work was ok. I still have one more day till my dateline. Hope I can make it tomorrow. As I can see, no problem in completing it tomorrow. Speaking of work, I went out with lunch with my collegues along with my boss. We had our lunch at Dragon-i. It was boss's treats because today is one of my collegue's last day. It was an expensive lunch but all of us had fun. I ordered quite a lot and ate quite a lot also. Not that I am greedy, just that I would like to try the egg mustard bun there. I still prefer SOHO's. Too bad, no more SOHO in 1 Utama. I wonder when will my last day of work in that company be? Will I change to another company? Will I leave that company and manage my own one? God knows...It was never in my planning yet, at least not now. One thing for sure, it is not easy. Support cases are enough trouble. It has never been easy. Even I am doing support cases sometimes. Not all the time though but I really dun like that. After all, I have my own task to complete. So fast, tomorrow is already Friday. Another weekend is coming and will be leaving soon. How time flies...BB is now 1 year and 2 months old already. Sigh...now i feel so much older. No more youth life, no more going around having fun with friends and such. Bleh...forget it. I'll get irritated when I talk about this. Anyway, my company suppose to plan a trip to Phuket. Thanks to certain people, the trip was delayed and even until now, I dun even get any confirmation about the trip. I have to wait until Monday to be able to get some answers. It is so hard to plan even for company trips. Guess I have to wait until Monday. Gosh...how annoyed can I be due to this trip. Besides, SC kept asking me about the trip everyday. Got even annoyed. Nothing much to say...here's a quick joke that I read in a magazine yesterday. A boy was talking to her mother. Boy : Mom, our neighbour must be very very poor... Mom : Why do you say that? Boy : Because the parents made so much fuss when their baby swallowed a dime... *giggles*

Back Again...

Finally I'm back again. I guess I had too much time for myself at night. I had always thought of starting a new blog but never actually did it. Influenced by a friend of mine who started a new blog and told me to comment it when I cant do that for certain reasons. Anyway, welcome back. Not sure who my reader will be but whoever it is, I will appreciate comments on certain things. Love life, personal life, motherhood life, working life had never been easy for me. After all, those are challenges of life. Things had never been easy ever since I was blessed with BB. No more clubbing, no more night life, no more shopping with friends, dedicated all my time to BB. Sometimes I would be sad but I guess I dont mind that at all. Life with BB is great and since I'm working during the weekdays, I would definitely spend more time with her during the weekends. It would hurt me much to see that she wouldnt be close to me. Feelings go up and down all the time due to this. I knew myself very well that I've changed. I dislike that but I dont have any choice. I'm being very overprotective over BB and I want to train her to behave and have manners. Most of the time, I never have a chance to do that because somebody else would have pamper her and all sort. How would I train in that way? Everytime during meal, she just couldnt sit down and play just like any other kids. She would climb out and start walking around. I dont like that but yet, somebody else would have bring her away from me and start pampering her, letting her do whatever she wants. Tell me what would I do? So, dont blame me for being sensitive. That's for my personal life. Working life, everything is good. Busy with all my works as I am entrusted with lots of work. Now, I'm working on integration of OMRON blood pressure set with our systems. It is fun in a way. Going through all the hassle to look for the BP set, going into the warehouse of my boss just to look for that. Found the box but inside the box were junks. Found the casing but inside the casing were junks. Finally, after digging through the warehouse, found the BP set, lying around in a big box along with other junks. Godness me...Seriously, the warehouse is full of junks. They threw so many boxes away just to clear up the warehouse. Of course I wasnt involved. As soon as I got my things, TTFN ( ta ta for now ). *giggles* Speaking of working life, I like working in my current company. Everything that I do/did, I always have fun in doing them. The satisfaction is there. The collegues are all friendly and great. Even my boss is friendly. At least I like his principle of having everyone in the office of the same rank. He told us that a long time before, I guess it was around the time when I just started not long ago. Whatever it is, the working environment there is great. I guess this entry is long enough. Will stop here. Anyway this blog will not be only about my personal things. Sometimes when I found something interesting, I would post it up. Maybe like some emails that I received, or some jokes that I found. Just anything interesting so that this blog wont be so personal. At least that is what I'm thinking. TTFN*