New week...

Another week juz went past, a new week is coming. This new week will be a new week for me. A new week for me to start again, a new week for me to let go certain things. I may not be strong, I may not like it, but I want to do it. Not for myself, but for others. Sounds weird eh? I'm not even sure what am I babbling about. *shrugs* Juz hope that this week will be a better week for me since this weekend was one of the worse weekend that I ever had in my life. I practically have to force myself to find some work to do else I'll be spending my time thinking too much. I was trying to finish up SC's catalogue, trying to fix my house stupid connection, trying to finish up my story book, trying to think of what to wear for Preston's wedding dinner. Lots of things that I did. I even tried to go for a jog but it rained so too bad... Anyway, I am actually looking forward to this coming week. Terence promised me to bring me for drinking and SC got me ciggy, although I used Preston's name to get it. Sorry Preston..I'll give you some? *winks* Terence said he'll plan and let me know tomorrow. Cheers to him. I finally get to drink, finally get to let go of my mind...I am someone that like drinking but since I am commited, I cant drink much. *shrugs* I used to be a drinker, used to be a clubber, but I wun drink to the extend that I'm knock out...to the very least I still know what I am doing. Of course, I always drink with SC but somehow I didnt like to drink with him. He always get drunks and do lame and stupid things that get me irritated. All the time !!! *shrugs* For now, I can drink with Terence, I can throw my tantrum at him, I can smoke in front of him, at least I know that he'll be there for me. He'll care for me when I'm down, he'll knock my head when I'm wrong, he'll scold me when I'm very wrong. Well, that is my good boyfren. Never get bored of him...I hold on to his promise dearly so please dont let me down...I'm not as strong as I used to be anymore...Even Adrian, my lame lil petbro, saying that although I look tough outside but deep inside, I am very fragile. I'm sure Terence knew that as well that is why he made that promise to me and I deeply appreciate it. Cheers to him and will be looking forward to the drinking session... For some reason I am actually thinking of my birthday...Thanks to Danny for reminding me that. He actually asked on the celebration...I guess nothing much. Every year SC will celebrate with me together with his family. Birthday pressie was never on time because I always use the excuse to skip it when SC bought things for me before my birthday, although it is juz shopping out of the blue. I didnt want him to waste money on buying pressies for me. Red packets from family members, sometimes pressie from my sister. Birthday dinner usually will be Japanese buffet since they knew that I love it. I'm not choosy anyway as long as I get to celebrate with everyone. I wonder will it be any difference this year? Even my collegues didnt do anything last year for me. Expected though... Well, since I got into contact back with Terence, will I be able to have drinking session with him? Will I be able to celebrate with my close collegues? Will I be able to celebrate with Danny? Who knows...In fact, maybe when the time comes, Terence graduated and go overseas, close collegues left the company, Danny forget about me? *shrugs* Noone knows what will happen in the future. I juz want a birthday wish...not really one though...But still can lump it up into one *winks* I juz want everyone close to me, my family members, Terence, Danny, my close frenz to be happy, to live a happy life. Not too much to ask for right? As for me, I juz want to remain a somebody within each of them. *grins* My birthday is 6 months ahead and I'm thinking of all these. Wake up dum dum !! *shrugs* At least it keeps me entertained for a moment there juz to visualize my special day. Oh ya...now that it's January, I get to go back to my saloon. Thanks to my stylist, Alex, after the treatment that he did for me few months back, he dun let me do anything to my hair until January. Finally, I'll be going back there and do a rebonding. My hair is too messy and I'm lazy to blow it every morning especially when BB is still sleeping. 2 more weeks will be SC's full day work on Saturday. I was actually thinking of going shopping but beats me, I think it will not work out. So I probably will look for Alex to do rebonding on my hair, juz in time for Preston's wedding dinner. Pamper myself in the saloon...Great way to spend my lonely day *winks* I'll be looking forward to that day as well... Too long entry for today...I'll leave the others for tomorrow. *shrugs* I'm back to my blogging every night habit already. Guess I'm back for good. I'm even learning to do the layout on my own. Juz need to get some images done first. Still looking for the right image to fit in my blog. Cross my fingers and adios*