Serious Talk...

I heard a quite disturbing news today but at the same time, I heard a quite happy news as well. Those news are from my MD anyway. The disturbing one, since it is disturbing, I wouldn't want to share it. Well, even if it is true, it would be none of my business, at least not now anymore. Leaving that aside, I actually had a serious talk with my MD. I'd been wanting to talk to him ever since beginning of the year but never had a chance. He called me and my supervisor into his room and talked to us. After that, I actually requested to talk to him. My supervisor left us. I actually asked for my raise *giggles* Well...it doesnt turn out good as expected due to my work. Ups and downs. I knew it perfectly well. He wanted me to show him better performance then he'll discuss with Singapore side, not sure for what though. Anyway, I also shared with him certain things. Ups and downs due to my family problems. Part of it is about SC and the other part is about my grandfather in Penang. He wanted me to take some time off to visit him in Penang but I didnt want that. Not that I didnt want to visit him...even my mom is not back. He's saying that she's not back so? I cant visit him...Yeah..I wish I could...He dont recognise me. What is the use of seeing him? *shrugs* He may not recognise me but I still care for him. I shed my tears for him last year on his birthday celebration. Well, I dont need to go to Penang... Next is about SC. It is not about third party or whatsoever, I juz told him that I'm seriously very tired mentally. Work, family, daughter, responsibility...doing all those on my own. It is not easy at all. Besides, my work is really pilling up. All my work got dateline but it seems that I always go out of the dateline. Lots of things coming in between, interrupting my work. He told me to make a proper planning...that is what a scorecard is for. I have been trying to plan properly but never manage to do it. *shrugs* Anyway, he said he'll give me 1 week off next month...to make things up with SC, to rest a bit. Too stressed out. Thanks to him in advance. Really appreciate it. He told me another thing that finally make things clear to me. Why is that all this while I was the only one that he never scolded. I am like a sister to him. Will be there for me if I ever needed someone to talk. I'm really glad that he is my MD, and my fren at the same time. One of my councellor as well *giggles*