Night out...

Second entry for the day. *shrugs* Was in a hurry for my dinner a while back. Anyway, this entry will be about yesterday. My dinner and drinking session with Terence alone. Was really looking forward to it to the extend that I was keeping an eye on the time until it ticks at 6 pm. Preston was in the office that time and Terence was nowhere to be found. He tempted me to for a ciggy *shrugs* I went with him to the usual place where we sat down and chat. That was the time when I saw Terence's car stepped into my view. Got him to come down and sit beside me while I finish up my ciggy. They both intro to each other. Somehow rather I felt really happy surrounded by close frenz... After the ciggy, I went upstairs to pack my stuffs and off I go. It was really nice to see Terence that time since I was really feeling down that day. My last tears were never last though but I did held it real hard. That was the past anyway. We drove down to Curve and got to Italiennes for our dinner. He had a two course meal while I had a lasagna. Damn...it was freaking filling. I didnt finish my meal anyway. Then, we went next door to Laundry. Had 2 bucket of Heineken. Terence was worried that we couldn't finish it. *winks* Don't look down on me ok? I can drink *giggles* 10 bottles, I finished 4 and shared one last bottle with him. We talked about everything...SC, Danny, work, my supervisor, my MD, frenz, juz everything to the extend of talking bout shit and I mean really shit. It was so gross when he talked about it while we were having dinner. Trying to be funny. I could still stand it but I do have my limit. *grins* Lots of drinking, lots of ciggys, lots of laughter, lots of joy. It felt great and I was really happy. At least I wasn't feeling down anymore. I am really glad that he was there for me and he kept his promise. Time was short. We finished our drinks, went to the car and stayed there. Well...I was actually 'tipsying' while walking anyway. Furthermore I was wearing heels and the path to his car is through stairs. I was walking super slow, holding on the his hand, his shoulder...Once we reached basement level, he wrapped his arms around my shoulder and started walking to the car. I was never bothered with that. We sat in the car for some time since I was 'tipsying'. He wanted me to sober up so that I could drive back home. I was practically lying down on his shoulders the whole time, giving him a hug whenever I want, a peck whenever I want. He did peck my on my cheeks as well but he did something unexpected though. On the lips...I was shocked but at the same time, relieved. What's with that? He'll know that I'm sober if I push him away. That was what he told me. Trying to be funny again. That wasnt the only time though. Time to time without notice...I didnt push him back cuz I know that was only a friendly yet close kiss. I knew that he wants me to cheer up, because that time, I was telling him my feelings about SC, how I was really tired mentally, how I was holding up for Danny...I was lost and really tired...He understands me really well and thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful fren. Even before I left his car to my car, he kissed me not on my cheek, but on my lips. It was sweet of him.... Terence is someone who is really precious to me. Someone irreplacable, someone that I hold dearly in my heart, someone that knew me deep inside, someone that promised to be there for me whenever I am down, someone who always look out for me, someone who know exactly how to cure me from my swings...I love him...as someone close to me, in a different way that I love SC. He is a dear fren, a dear brother, a dear family, someone that SC trust...at least that is good news for me. I can go out with Terence without the needs to lie and I am really comfortable with him. Thank God again for this wonderful gift... Oh...and this little message is intended for someone close to me. You know who you are... I had alot of fun spending every of our time together...being close and all. I still like how you always manage to pampers me but that was the past. Things is changing now. I hope that you could still pamper me but I do not want it. I even asked you a favor to keep the ring until things is clear. I made a chain for it so that I could wear it on my neck but it would be better if you keep it. I'll take it back when I feel like it. Anyway, just want you to know that I'm not sure how many things that you are hiding from me...whether the words that you told me were lies or the truth, I cant think straight now. I cant reason with myself now. Whatever it is, that is the past...I gotta learn to stand up again...You'll always be a good fren to me...