Outstation Trip...

Many days of missing entries...I was too tired and too heaty to even take my time to drop an entry here. Besides, I have my own things to do and found some things to do on my free time instead of spending my time in front of the computer doing nuts. Anyway, my desktop is finally out from the hospital...It juz undergo surgery and need time to recover. Need to reformat though so I bought myself an external harddisk of 1 TG. Big enough for all my files to be stored there instead of the computer. In case if the computer knock out again, I juz need to reformat it *giggles* Well, 3 days 2 nights in Penang was tiring. That was my first time driving down to Penang though. Nothing much, juz visiting and swimming...Weather was awful there. Too hot for me. But when we reached KL, the weather here was worst due to the heat wave. The feeling was like when I was doing my confinement. Super hot...SC rather spend time outside than at home. Bleh...I juz need to bear with it. I wonder how was Michael's wedding dinner. I didnt make it there though. But I did give a red packet to him...Preston helped me to pass it to him. There were lots of reasons why I didnt go for it...anyway that is the past already. Wish him and his wife an everlasting relationship...same goes for Preston and Liz. On the other hand, wish for me and SC to have an everlasting relationship as well *giggles* Last month was a bad month for me. Simon, my grandpa, Kevin....I still cant get them out of my mind. I will miss them dearly...especially grandpa and Kevin. Speaking of which, I juz realized that I didnt know my grandpa or my grandma's name. Never came to my mind since recently. I wonder...my mom posted lots of pictures of my grandpa during his olden times. None of the picture was with me though *shrugs* I saw one picture with my sister and that's all. Bleh...As I said, I will miss them dearly...grandpa was old so I'm still ok with it but Kevin...he's only one year older than me. That was too much for me to handle. His memories still lingers in my mind... Well, I guess I will be ok...along with every other little things. I am who I am and I will be who I want to be and not who others want me to be so I will be good. Past is the past so I will not dwell in the past. Get on with my life and accept the changes. That wasnt an easy thing to do but I guess I am over it. It has been going on too long and I am sure I'll get fed up of it. Why would I want to let it get into my life and twist things around? I decided...after so long to let it go...once and for all...Brand new person tomorrow...hopefully *shrugs* Pray for me that I'll finish my work tomorrow and get on with my life. By the way, my collegue, rather ex-collegue, Jacky left the company already so I'll be on my own for breakfast again. For the past month, I had been having breakie with him almost every morning since he always reached early. Oh well....I'm going to bed now... *Adios...

Shocking News...

I never expect anything like this to happen...I was browsing thru my facebook when I came across a status update by my fren...'May you rest in peace my dear fren'. I commented on his status...'God bless...someone I know?' Immediately after that, I received a private message from another fren...from the same gang...and I heard a shocking news...one of them passed away due to accident...I was really shocked...That person is someone whom I hang around with last time during secondary school, along with the others...all in the same gang...one of them in the gang actually had a crush on me and that is how they got to know me... In loving memory of Kevin Pang.... I was never close to you...but ever since the first time that we talked to each other, you were already my fren. During the old times, you were like the good guy in the gang. Someone whom are always calm and steady. I still remember last time during secondary school, your class is juz opposite my class, together with Lai and KC. You guys used to disturb me cause of KC. That was how we became fren and I did hang around with your gang. I also remember the time when things werent good in school for me, you guys were there to protect me, to look after me. I remembered how much fun we had during those time...Thanks for taking care of me during those time and thanks for being my fren as well. You will be remembered and will be missed...I am sorry that I didnt pay my last respect to you as I do not know how to face it. Please forgive me on that.... It must be hard to the gang cuz it is hard for me as well even when I am not really close to them. I do not know how to face it. It is juz unbelievable. I do not know what to think, what to say...Deepest condolences to his family members and to the gang. Speechless... Life is so valuable. You can be having fun all this time and the next thing you know, in juz that split second, something has taken away your life...unexpectedly and unpredictably. I'm beginning to be scared...Scared that one of those who are close to me will go away as well...How will I handle it? How will I take it? Please Father lord...please do not take them away from me...I know very well that You only take them away for a reason but it will be too much for me to take it. I do not want to experience it....Father Lord...I pray for all of them...pray that they will stay alive.... 3 deaths in 3 weeks...how am I taking it? I have no idea...This is the first time...I'm breaking apart...Juz when I thought I'm recovering...things happened. When things happen, I tend to keep it to myself. SC will ask me not to think so much. Terence...I didnt tell him cuz I didnt want to disturb him. He is busy with fishing as well as his project so he didnt even want to go for drinking. He wants to stay sober...KW...didnt tell him as well. I'm sure he is tired and busy with work and relationship...Who else can I share with? I'm lost...shattered... Shattered is juz the right word now...

Ringi o Missing...

Somehow I kinda miss my so-called ex ring *giggles* Well, the ring is a gift from a special fren but something turns up and I gave back the ring. I am suppose to take it back when I am ready but until now I have no intention to take it back at all. I will not want to take it back anyway. But then...I miss it *shrugs* How come I have to be so contradicting all the times? Ringi o ringi...I wonder how are you doing? I wonder where are you? *grins* Thought back of lots of things today. Office had been quite different for the past few weeks...in fact, a month ago. I used to have someone close to me but for some reasons, I decided to keep my distance. I knew perfectly the situation but I guess I'm juz being greedy. I do miss having that person as someone close to me but that was the past. Present...no...future...I do not know. I am a runner...I am running away from the fact...I knew this all along but I juz cant help it but to run instead of accepting the fact. Contradicting as always...Time will heal me... It is not easy at all to forget someone close...in fact, the more you want to forget that person, the more you tend to think of that person. Speechless as always... I miss SC....I miss Terence....I miss my kor KW....

End of Holiday...

1 week passed and that's the end of my lovely holidays. *shrugs* Although it is only 1 week but lots of things happened in this 1 week. My beloved grandpa went far away from us...my mom was here for a while but I didnt get to see her...Valentine's Day...Chinese New Year...BB's birthday...outing with SC...family dinner with Dad...overall I had a great time. I do have my ups and downs tho...My brother called me on BB's birthday wishing her a happy birthday and I did asked him on my grandpa's matters. He was told that grandpa passed away with a smile in his face...He was happy at the very last moment. Thank God for that. I respect him a lot...at least that is a good news for me...I am able to face myself in this situation better. BB is not feeling well this few days...rather since yesterday. She's having some problem in her stomach and she had been vomiting on foods since yesterday. May God bless him...SC will be bringing her to the doctor tomorrow and hopefully everything will be ok. I juz pray for her to be healthy again. Oh ya...we went swimming today...me, BB, SC, and one of his fren at Palm Spring. It was rather cold tho the pool water there. BB played in the swimming pool with her new Pooh float that I bought for her. She is happy. The only thing is that she didnt want to wear her swimming suit *shrugs* Off she goes into the pool with her proper attire *shrugs* At least she had fun and we were all together. Something happened yesterday...SC was out at his frenz open house gambling and all till late at night when he suddenly called me saying that his fren will be staying over at Palm Spring and he'll be there with him too. I was really angry and at the same time dissapointed with him. I remembered telling this to myself...SC can go out at night, drinking and have fun and all as long as he comes back home at night...All this while, it had been like that...as long as he comes back home...I will be ok. But yesterday, for the first time, he told me he'll be staying over there. I didnt know what to think...altho the fren is a guy but still...I cant accept it. It was about 3 am that time. I told him...whatever it is...I want him to be back at home and I slammed down the phone...as usual *giggles* Well, he did came back home...at about 4 am. Lots of things was on my mind yesterday that I couldnt sleep at all. I put my trust in him that he is not cheating on me and I believe that he will not but sometimes, I juz tend to think too much and I'm quite a sensitive person as well. I never like that part of me but that is me...I have to accept it. I dont think I can change it so I have to accept it. That is my quote for life. Things that happened to me in the past...were never easy to forget...in fact, I cant seem to forget it at all. Even if it happened many years ago...it still runs in my mind from time to time. My mind is still in a mess now, in fact, I am still in a mess now. Well, I have noone to blame but myself. Bleh...juz have to get a hang of myself until I am fully settled down...I wonder when will it be...Will I be able to settle down at all? *shrugs*

BB's Birthday Eve...

Tomorrow will be BB's 2 years old birthday...Happy birthday BB in advance. *giggles* Me and SC will be bringin her out tomorrow to play as much as she wants. She loves going to Kids Gym so we'll be there with her in the morning till afternoon. Cheers to SC for accompanyin us. I thought that he didnt want to go in the first place but he said BB's birthday...must go...so sweet of him. Juz hope that BB will enjoy her day tomorrow... Mom is back to KL but she went up to Genting already. I called sis this morning since I received missed call from her but she said she'll call me back cuz she's busy. Well, I waited till night time but no call from her yet. When I finally call her back, mom is already in Genting and their flight tomorrow is early in the mornin. WTH? There goes my chance of seeing her. *grins* SC's mom was sort of grumbling saying that I'm her daughter and yet I didnt visit her or something like that. Sigh...I didnt want to explain...I juz kept quiet. Finish my dinner fast and get out from the dining table. I juz hate it when people said that. Have I not become a good daughter? Even my mom has not treated me like her daughter but I did make an effort to visit her and all...what can I do when she's not free? What is it with the what kind of daughter is this...I hate it so much...I hate how my mom treats me....I hate how she didnt call me while she called my sis and my bro...I hate how she left me on my own....I hate it....but she is still my mom...whatever that she did or she does, she is still my mom...my one and only mom and I love her for being my mom...

Confused...

I'm confused...I dont know what to think, what to do. Everything I do felt wrong...everything I think felt not right...Am I supposed to be here still while the rest of my family members are at Penang? What am I doing here and not there? Arent I supposed to be there paying my respect? I do not know...Deep inside me, the feeling is heating me up...Contradicting as always...I want to be there but at the same time, I dont want to be there. Which is right...which is wrong? This would be my third family member that passed away. First two would be my grandparents on my dad side. I wasnt even anywhere near them as I was still very little and all I could remember is that when my grandpa passed away, my dad showed me my name written in the newspaper and I had to pin on a piece of white cloth over at the sleeve of my shirt. When my grandma passed away, cant remember much, I juz remembered seeing her picture sent over by my aunt. This time would be my grandpa from my mom's side. I am old enough now and I know perfectly well what is going on but I still dont know how to handle it, how to respond to it. Why is that so? It is juz that everything happened too fast...One after another and I even didnt have any time to heal perfectly...I am still recovering from whatever happened in the past and now things juz keep adding on. I am really scared...scared of losing people close to me especially SC. I can only pray for their safety and hope that God will watch over him and people who are close to me. Grandpa, although I am not by your side, although I did not see you for the last time, I want you to know that I'm glad that you are my grandpa. I appreciate everything that you did to me, even though I am only one of your many grandchildren. I am sure that God take you away from all of us for a reason and I am sure that you will watch over all of us from there. I love you grandpa...please rest in peace and we will take good care of ourselves...do not worry over any of us... *Peace out...

Rest in Peace...

Shocking news...I was not expecting this but it happened...and that is the fact that I cannot change...Today is the second day of CNY and it is also a day to remember....it is the day that my grandfather passed away...may he rest in peace. All my family members are going down to Penang tomorrow except for me. I'm not even sure whether I am doing the wrong thing or not. My mom told my sis and my brother to go but she didnt call me. For what reason, I do not know...probably she juz couldnt get me on my handphone. I heard the news from my brother anyway... Regardless of that...although I am not close to my grandpa...but he is still my grandpa...my one and only one and with him gone, I'm sure I will miss him alot. God has taken him back to His hand and will take good care of him from now on. He will not suffer anymore. May he look up upon each and everyone of us from Heaven. I will miss him so much....please...rest in peace... I really dont know how should I respond when I got the news...no tears were shed...not until now...life is so fragile...how I wish there would be someone to share my sadness...I didnt tell anyone except for SC and apparently he told his parents. Anyway, I dont like to talk bout it though so I juz pretend that nothing happen...deep down I'm lost...not knowing how to react...

Sleepless night...

This few days I couldnt sleep at all and I wasnt as tired as I expected. I had been sleeping very late at night...probably bout 3 am and wake up early in the morning bout 9 am. Today is only the second day of CNY...not even sure whether time is passing by fast or slow. *shrugs* Anyway, I was out almost the whole day yesterday and was only back home for a rest in the afternoon, that was the time for BB's nap time. I was busy crocheting anyway. I still got lots of yarns left so I am making myself a coat. Doing that, I'm not even sure whether I have enough yarns onot...*shrugs* Cross my fingers then... Yesterday morning was out for visiting and night time was out for dinner with my dad, sis and bro. We had our dinner at King Crab. Dinner was great...not the food but the ambiance and the interaction between my family members. Lots of photography session though since my sister brought her huge camera. I brought my camera as well but I didnt use it at all. BB was busy playing with the others, although Ashley didnt want to play with her. She juz tag along. My brother got a girlfren and even showed her picture to me. Well, pleasant girl and she even go to the house to teach my stepsis and giving her tuition. At least she is willing to teach. SC was busy drinking since my dad's fren was there and he is a foreigner, rather a white, and he drinks as well. That will keep him entertained while I interact with my family members. Kiddos were all playing iPhone at the end of the day. Children nowadays...*shrugs* Even BB was playing with my iPhone. Oh well...that would keep her entertained as well. Overall, great dinner. But this year my dad didnt give me any ang pau *shrugs* Oh well...at least the ang pau that she gave BB is a big one *giggles* Dad is going to Langkawi today, he should reached there already and my brother is alone at home as he wanted. May God bless him and let him be safe. Will call him from time to time since he's not a kiddo anymore. 17 years old and counting...

Happy CNY and Happy Valentines Day...

This year Chinese New Year is on Valentine's Day. Well, Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines Day too !!! *giggles* For me, Chinese New Year is more to a family thing while Valentines Day...everyday is Valentines Day for me so nothing special bout that. Being together with SC is the best Valentines pressie I ever had...although he is not with me right now *shrugs* He will be back soon...I hope. Anyway, nothing much to say juz those two wishes to everyone. Nitez*

Computer Died...

Damn...my desktop computer juz died on me. I'd tried to revive it as my best knowledge but I failed to do so. Need to send it to the hospital tomorrow, juz before the festive seasons. *shrugs* Luckly I still have my lappy to use. Wifi wasnt really stable for now so I still have extra port for LAN cable *giggles* At least I do not have to unplug any one of the other computers. I juz luv to have my lappy around me. This few days I had been bringing my lappy to work. Although I do not need it there but I juz luv its presence. *winks* Anyway, today was a fun day. Working day but we spent half day outside. We went for charity places in the morning. I actually requested to stay in the office since I got alot of work to do but my MD insisted that I follow him *grins* No choice then...Well, we went to Spastic school as well as old folks home. It was really an experience. Visiting those places will open up our eyes to value our lives even more as we are much more fortunate and blessed that those childrens and old folks that we visited. We actually give ang pau to those old folks and they were very happy. Good deed brings good karma. That is what I believe. Yada yada....half day wasted outside but those were one good hell of an experience. I even brought my camera which almost died on me as well. Battery was low but luckly it managed to stay alive until the end of the day. I posted some pictures in my Facebook though. I juz luv one of the pic that I took today. It was with Preston though. It was blur though cuz my hand shook. Darn...I didnt switch on the anti shake *shrugs* Oh well...I still like that picture. I even took picture of Jacky and Fazli playing PS3 from the back...slacking!!! Duh...that was after office hours anyway. Nothing much bout today...I'm actually crocheting a valentines present...still trying to do that but hope it will be nice...*Adios...

Life is unfair...

Life can be very unfair at times...I was at the special children's home, visiting them for office charity. We do that every month and I took part in mostly all of it. Anyway, it was such a scene to see so many of the special children, lying in the house, unable to move, all range from different ages. Theirs body parts were deformed, speeches were unclear, growth were affected. Some were even at the age of 17 years old but the size of a 7 years old. Their parents, or rather used to be parents, left them on their own knowing their condition, left some of them at the side of the road, in the basket, on their own. How cruel can they be? Every humans are special and every life are important. They may be deformed, but they are still human, they are still your child. How could the parents juz leave them like that? After going thru all the hard labour, juz abandoned them like they never had them before...This is life, the real world that we are living in. That is why, we should be blessed and be thankful enough to be who we are right now. I do not pity them...in fact, I'm happy for them to be able to stand strong until now. They might be going thru a hard time, much more than I am...but at least they are still breathing...they are still alive. Today is the first time I visited special children's home and I'm glad that I did. It was a good experience. I tried to talk and play with some of them, actually juz one of them since she is so cheerful and happy when we came. Sat down next to her, playing with her...She was happy...laughing and smiling, wanted to be loved and pampered juz like everyone else. When we were about to leave, her expression changed. Sorry to leave but we have to leave. I told her that I 'sayang' her *winks* She nodded and said bye to me. Although they are special, but they did their best to live on, and their caretaker did their best to take care of each and everyone of them. May God bless everyone of them. They might have a difficult path ahead of them but dont worry...I'm sure God has everything planned for them. Please stay strong....I'm proud of each and everyone of them... Speaking of life, death is another story. I juz got a message from SC's fren, saying that one of his fren, someone whom I knew as well, juz passed away due to cancer. He is at the same age of SC. He is still young and he juz had a kid not long ago. Less than a year. God decided to take his life away. May you rest in peace. Life is so valuable but yet some people could juz take it away, hurting other people, commiting suicide, or even attempt suicide...Dont they know life is so valuable? Someone who is very much alive wants to die while someone who is at the edge of dying would give away anything to stay alive. Anyhow, this is human...this is the real life. Everyone tends to take things for granted, even for life. I'm afraid of death to be honest. Sometimes, it would juz come to me, what happen when someone dies? What will happen when I die? Izit feel like I'm sleeping, having dreams and all...the only difference is that I will never wake up again? It was really scary everytime when I thought of that and I ended up crying and value my life even more. Human will die at a time but what will happen when human die? Do they reborn again and start everything again? Do they stay alive in Heaven looking down at the real world? I do not know...I will never know...That is why I am afraid...afraid of life and death... Life is never fair. We juz have to live with it and do our part to even it up. I am thankful and blessed with who I am, with my parents for bringing me into this world...giving me a chance to experience the up and down of life, and I will swear in the name of God that I will appreciate this life given to me and will live life to the fullest. That will be the best that I can do as a human...*Peace out..

WTH!!!

Two words say it all....Pissing off...to the max. I was freaking pissed off that I was in tears yesterday night on my way back home. No more happy go lucky me in the office...I'll definitely show my pissed off face to work from now onwards...

Monday blues...

Somehow rather I'm having Monday blues today...towards the end of the day anyway. I didnt drive my car to work today. My collegue, Jacky came over to fetch me since I'll be meeting up with SC for dinner. Yada yada...nothing much today. I was pretty tired since I slept pretty late yesterday. Couldnt sleep for some reason and again...I had a dream...a dream that I would not want to share. *grins* I hardly dream and this two nights I had been dreaming and I could only remember bits of it. Rather keep it to myself. Anyway...SC is out drinking with his brother and KF, I think. I actually wanted to join him but he didnt wan so I left and went back home. But at least I enjoyed my dinner tonight. I was pretty late since I didnt drive and I followed KF's car. Well, almost everyone were there when we reached the restaurant and my MD's table were full. I guess luck was on my side today *winks* When I went out to pick up call from Adrian and then I came back in with SC, I was told to sit on the same table as my MD. Cheers to whoever... Dinner was great I suppose. Joked around...had fun...but I was having a lil headache due to work. Stress I suppose? I juz wish I could juz fall asleep that time...or maybe drink? *grins* Anyway, I drove SC car back home while SC followed KF's car and meet up with his brother. I left my bottle in KF's car anyway *shrugs* Can't think now...need to rest... Oh ya...I went to 1 Utama yesterday for shopping *giggles* I actually had allowance to buy clothes *winks* Allowance from a particular person. Cheers to him...not any of my family members though...Well, at least I bought a lot of clothes for New Year. I still remember I went shopping to buy clothes during last year end and now, I was doing my shopping again with SC. Happy happy...for the time being *shrugs* But one thing for sure...SC pampers me alot today and I really like it. I'm childish...I know...I never get bored of being pampered cuz that is my nature...love being pampered. Suddenly I misses Terence...he got his own way to pamper me as well...I guess I'll give him a call tomorrow juz to talk to him. I didnt want to disturb him much since he is having his last term and it would be an important term for him to grad. Anyway...wish him all the best *winks* Tired...will be going for a jog tomorrow morning before going off to work...I hope *giggles* Adios peeps*

Short dream...

I had a dream juz a while back before I woke up...I cant remember what kind of dream was it or what was the story of the dream but one thing for sure...I dreamt of him...someone that I'm trying my best to let go. There he was, in my dream...in a room somewhere. I was walking past his room and the door was half open. When I glanced into the room, there he was, sleeping with his lappy next to him. I guess he fell asleep while using his lappy as he always did...Can't remember what happened after that...Weird eh? Short but means alot to me...at least that is what I think... *Peace out...

Contradictions...

I find myself quite contradicting at times...in fact, most of the time I am. Contradicting in a sense that I tend to speak out and think differently. I hate it much but I dont think I have a choice not to be contradicting. To me, if being that way make the other party happy, why not? At least it will leave a good impression rather than a bad one. Certain things, I would be happy to juz say no but saying that will not help much. It is not easy at all to bear with all this messy feelings. I know perfectly well where I stand and where I should remain. I love SC alot, I love BB alot, I love my family alot, I love my certain close frenz alot. Most of the times, I have to keep up with everyone's selfishness. Am I tired with it? I guess no...they are the one that keep me alive, keep me breathing... They are my puzzle pieces...without any of them, I am not complete. Sometimes I really wonder, where will I be...who will I become...what will I be doing...if my life is without all of them...Juz wondering and of course I do not wish for it to come true. I will be shattered. Friends come and go...not many stays with me. Well, at least I know that I'm not easy to click. Only a handful of my so-called frenz can handle my selfishness and thanks to them...I'm still breathing. You called that true frenz? I suppose so...Betrayal of frenship, betrayal of relationship...those are part and parcel of life. It is juz how we handle it when it does happen. It may not be easy but hey...life is never easy. I am truly blessed with what I have now and that is something that I will never regret in my whole life. SC may throw his tantrum at me sometimes but most of the times, he will be there juz for me. He is the one that truly cares for me...when I was sick, when I was hospitalized, when I was in labour, when I have nightmare...he is always by my side whenever I wake up. But at times, I really hate myself for messing my life up. I do have this principle of not having to regret anything that I did and yes, I still keep up with that. Everything I did up to now, I never regret it in my whole life. Happiness and sadness, it will remain as my precious memories without any regrets. I do not hate anyone...I learn not to hate anyone because hate can never solve matters. Hate will make things worse. I learned it the hard way after having to experience my family conditions. Juz be blessed with everything that you have now...that is what I believe in.

Genting Trip...

It had been a long weekend for me and overall, I had a wonderful and tiring day spent with my little family. This little request that was approved by my MD is actually about this trip. This trip to Genting, with juz me, SC and BB, was meant for our honeymoon along with BB. That was the second time BB had been up in Genting but that was the first time she played those indoor games. She was having so much fun anyway. In fact, that was the first time I actually played all the indoor games with all the family rides. We were there for 3 days 2 nights, staying in Theme Park Hotel. It was close to outdoor theme park but quite a distance from indoor theme park. Oh well...at least the room was much better than First World Hotel's room. First day, we were there in the afternoon after our lunch. SC paid for BB and me to play the indoor games. We bumped into Camie though. Small world...we also bumped into our neighbour...really small world. Anyway, SC didnt want to join us in playing those rides. First day was ok but towards the night time, I was suddenly suffocating. Something wasn't right about me. I was having difficulties in breathing, I was having dizziness. SC told me to get some sleep and I did...after a hard time. I didnt have a good sleep anyway... Second day, my condition wasn't any better. We woke up for breakfast but I couldnt eat anything at all. I was having nausea, felt like vomiting, having dizziness...it was really bad. I requested to stay in the room for the time being until I am much better. I took some rest while BB was playing on her own in the room and SC went out to the casino. It was till afternoon time that SC came back and we went out for lunch. My appetite havent recover yet but I can still walk normally. My nausea wasnt that bad but still there. This time, SC joined us for the indoor games. It was really fun...well not the thrilling fun but fun in the sense that we were all together at that time...Towards the late afternoon, while playing one of the game, BB fell asleep. It was quite shocking but I guess she was really tired. We went back to the room after that. Journey back to the room was tiring since I have to carry BB back. SC carried her but was exhausted after a while. Anyway, we stayed in the room for quite some time cuz I wasnt feeling well anyway. SC went out again to the casino. I was practically suffocating so I ended up calling some of my frenz juz to talk...at least I wun think much about it. I guess luck wasnt on my side. Everyone was busy....doing their own things so I ended up forcing myself to rest until dinner time. SC came back and we went out for dinner and to continue the games till night time. Third day, we checked out and went back home.... During my stay at Genting, I did talked to my MD a little. He was asking how was everything, making sure I did enjoy my time there, telling me to enjoy my time there. Thanks to him for being concern and I did have fun there. At the same time, I was planning on the CNY dinner that I need to get everyone's confirmation for the dinner. I didnt call everyone, I juz send messages to everyone. I only called a handful of people. Anyway, dinner was confirmed at Bangsar Seafood Restaurant...juz hope that it will be a great dinner cuz that will be the last time I'm gonna organize for company activity. I was happy today at work...at the same time quite stressed. Happy cuz my MD said I look prettier...*giggles* Whether it is only juz for fun...I take it as a compliment. Whether it is true or not...at least that brights up my day today. Cheers to him...Anyway, I have one more week to complete my task on hand and 3 migrations are queueing up *shrugs* All have to be done before CNY. I guess I need to bring some back home to do else I am not going to finish it. Really frustrated at times... Supposed to write on my feelings but I got fed up with my wireless connection and it is getting late anyway so I'll write more tomorrow. Stay with me? *giggles* Chioz peeps...

Happy Marriage...

Congratulations to the newly wed, Preston and Liz. I juz came back from their lovely wedding dinner ceremony. I didnt eat much but in fact, I drank quite a lot. Well, not to say alot anyway, not even tipsy but I was happy...happy for them, happy for me. I was there early anyway. I thought of going to the restaurant to confirm the CNY dinner though. I guess I was there too early. I saw Camie and Rose there though. Yada yada...Apparently my seating is with my MD and not with Camie. *shrugs* Sitting with Camie and the others would be even more fun than my seating. At least we get to drink and get crazy there. I was sitting next to SC and next to me was empty. Danny and KF supposed to be sitting there so I had to get some dishes for them as instructed by my MD. Oh well...I knew they would be late and I even sent a message to KF asking him to come faster. Nothing much bout that. My seating was to eat and from time to time I would go to Camie's table to join along with Gene and Frank for drinking session. There were 3 other guys at their table who likes drinking as well. Clicked and we tagged along so we ended up drinking together *Cheers to everyone...I drank beer, I drank liquor. Not good for my tongue but who cares...At least it doesn't hurt so much anymore. When Preston came to our table, we were so noisy that Preston distant himself away from us. That was funny though but at least I was having fun there. SC went for second round at his frenz place with his brother and I ended up at home. I was pretty tired anyway. By the way, I'm hungry as well..probably I'll get some noodles for myself. Didn't eat much there anyway but ended up drank quite a lot. *shrugs* Anyway...I wish that this newly wed couple would have an everlasting moments together and congrats to them for taking one step higher in their life. It may not be an easy road but as long as they love each other, they could overcome every challenge of life. At least that is what I believe in. I wouldnt say that my marriage is a perfect one but at least both of us tried to make it that way. I am blessed with what I have and will not take things for granted. Learned the hard way though. Going to make some noodles and going to sleep...*Chioz..