Life is unfair...

Life can be very unfair at times...I was at the special children's home, visiting them for office charity. We do that every month and I took part in mostly all of it. Anyway, it was such a scene to see so many of the special children, lying in the house, unable to move, all range from different ages. Theirs body parts were deformed, speeches were unclear, growth were affected. Some were even at the age of 17 years old but the size of a 7 years old. Their parents, or rather used to be parents, left them on their own knowing their condition, left some of them at the side of the road, in the basket, on their own. How cruel can they be? Every humans are special and every life are important. They may be deformed, but they are still human, they are still your child. How could the parents juz leave them like that? After going thru all the hard labour, juz abandoned them like they never had them before...This is life, the real world that we are living in. That is why, we should be blessed and be thankful enough to be who we are right now. I do not pity them...in fact, I'm happy for them to be able to stand strong until now. They might be going thru a hard time, much more than I am...but at least they are still breathing...they are still alive. Today is the first time I visited special children's home and I'm glad that I did. It was a good experience. I tried to talk and play with some of them, actually juz one of them since she is so cheerful and happy when we came. Sat down next to her, playing with her...She was happy...laughing and smiling, wanted to be loved and pampered juz like everyone else. When we were about to leave, her expression changed. Sorry to leave but we have to leave. I told her that I 'sayang' her *winks* She nodded and said bye to me. Although they are special, but they did their best to live on, and their caretaker did their best to take care of each and everyone of them. May God bless everyone of them. They might have a difficult path ahead of them but dont worry...I'm sure God has everything planned for them. Please stay strong....I'm proud of each and everyone of them... Speaking of life, death is another story. I juz got a message from SC's fren, saying that one of his fren, someone whom I knew as well, juz passed away due to cancer. He is at the same age of SC. He is still young and he juz had a kid not long ago. Less than a year. God decided to take his life away. May you rest in peace. Life is so valuable but yet some people could juz take it away, hurting other people, commiting suicide, or even attempt suicide...Dont they know life is so valuable? Someone who is very much alive wants to die while someone who is at the edge of dying would give away anything to stay alive. Anyhow, this is human...this is the real life. Everyone tends to take things for granted, even for life. I'm afraid of death to be honest. Sometimes, it would juz come to me, what happen when someone dies? What will happen when I die? Izit feel like I'm sleeping, having dreams and all...the only difference is that I will never wake up again? It was really scary everytime when I thought of that and I ended up crying and value my life even more. Human will die at a time but what will happen when human die? Do they reborn again and start everything again? Do they stay alive in Heaven looking down at the real world? I do not know...I will never know...That is why I am afraid...afraid of life and death... Life is never fair. We juz have to live with it and do our part to even it up. I am thankful and blessed with who I am, with my parents for bringing me into this world...giving me a chance to experience the up and down of life, and I will swear in the name of God that I will appreciate this life given to me and will live life to the fullest. That will be the best that I can do as a human...*Peace out..