Shocking News...

I never expect anything like this to happen...I was browsing thru my facebook when I came across a status update by my fren...'May you rest in peace my dear fren'. I commented on his status...'God bless...someone I know?' Immediately after that, I received a private message from another fren...from the same gang...and I heard a shocking news...one of them passed away due to accident...I was really shocked...That person is someone whom I hang around with last time during secondary school, along with the others...all in the same gang...one of them in the gang actually had a crush on me and that is how they got to know me... In loving memory of Kevin Pang.... I was never close to you...but ever since the first time that we talked to each other, you were already my fren. During the old times, you were like the good guy in the gang. Someone whom are always calm and steady. I still remember last time during secondary school, your class is juz opposite my class, together with Lai and KC. You guys used to disturb me cause of KC. That was how we became fren and I did hang around with your gang. I also remember the time when things werent good in school for me, you guys were there to protect me, to look after me. I remembered how much fun we had during those time...Thanks for taking care of me during those time and thanks for being my fren as well. You will be remembered and will be missed...I am sorry that I didnt pay my last respect to you as I do not know how to face it. Please forgive me on that.... It must be hard to the gang cuz it is hard for me as well even when I am not really close to them. I do not know how to face it. It is juz unbelievable. I do not know what to think, what to say...Deepest condolences to his family members and to the gang. Speechless... Life is so valuable. You can be having fun all this time and the next thing you know, in juz that split second, something has taken away your life...unexpectedly and unpredictably. I'm beginning to be scared...Scared that one of those who are close to me will go away as well...How will I handle it? How will I take it? Please Father lord...please do not take them away from me...I know very well that You only take them away for a reason but it will be too much for me to take it. I do not want to experience it....Father Lord...I pray for all of them...pray that they will stay alive.... 3 deaths in 3 weeks...how am I taking it? I have no idea...This is the first time...I'm breaking apart...Juz when I thought I'm recovering...things happened. When things happen, I tend to keep it to myself. SC will ask me not to think so much. Terence...I didnt tell him cuz I didnt want to disturb him. He is busy with fishing as well as his project so he didnt even want to go for drinking. He wants to stay sober...KW...didnt tell him as well. I'm sure he is tired and busy with work and relationship...Who else can I share with? I'm lost...shattered... Shattered is juz the right word now...