Rest in Peace...

Shocking news...I was not expecting this but it happened...and that is the fact that I cannot change...Today is the second day of CNY and it is also a day to remember....it is the day that my grandfather passed away...may he rest in peace. All my family members are going down to Penang tomorrow except for me. I'm not even sure whether I am doing the wrong thing or not. My mom told my sis and my brother to go but she didnt call me. For what reason, I do not know...probably she juz couldnt get me on my handphone. I heard the news from my brother anyway... Regardless of that...although I am not close to my grandpa...but he is still my grandpa...my one and only one and with him gone, I'm sure I will miss him alot. God has taken him back to His hand and will take good care of him from now on. He will not suffer anymore. May he look up upon each and everyone of us from Heaven. I will miss him so much....please...rest in peace... I really dont know how should I respond when I got the news...no tears were shed...not until now...life is so fragile...how I wish there would be someone to share my sadness...I didnt tell anyone except for SC and apparently he told his parents. Anyway, I dont like to talk bout it though so I juz pretend that nothing happen...deep down I'm lost...not knowing how to react...